Oh boy.

Dear Diary,

This year has not started out the best.  On New Year’s Eve I was all psyched up because I knew I would be moving in to Ryan’s parents’ house to live with him this year.  It was to be the start of our domestic lives together.  Unforunately this is not how it went down.

I arrived at the house around 9:30am to find Ryan’s mom Traci and grandson Cameron just waking up.  I saw Ryan’s dad’s truck there, but he did seem to be in or around the house.  Ryan was not there as well.  Once entering the bedroom I saw it.  Blood.  It turns out earlier that morning that Ryan and his dad, both having been drinking ’cause of New Year’s Eve, had gotten into a fight.  Traci took Cameron into the closet and called the police as the two fought outside.  So best to say I found out whey Ryan wasn’t there.  I spent most of the day with Traci trying to figure out if we should call the hospital or the jail to see if they were there.  I was worried, thinking Ryan might be dead, judging by all of his blood in the room.  By the time we got any news, they were indeed in jail and could not leave until they saw a detective.  Of course being a holiday and a weekend, Ryan and his dad had to stay in there until the detective came Monday.  I found Ryan’s glasses and got them to him on Saturday.  I haven’t been home to my mom yet, and have been keeping Traci company during this difficult time.  He got out of jail and came home yesterday.  Ryan is still in there because he has had priors.

I talked to him last night when he finally got a chance to call to ask me to come to jail and have him sign over his personal posessions to me.  He asked if we were still together.  I was honest and said ‘Yes’.  Why should I break up with him for his father beating him up?  I hope, if he does have to stay in jail, that he will get help, anger management and Alcoholics Anon, not to mention see a doctor for his depression.

I’ve been keeping care of the house, going out and buying food and cigarettes for Traci.  My brother Marc has been a big help, having been put away before, and is letting us know the progression of what has to happen before Ryan is a free man again.

So please keep Ryan in your thoughts and prayers.