First couple days of June ’07

Dear Diary,

I couldn’t think of a good title today becuase not much really happened.  I’m still a little off-kilter because of last night.  I had another dream with Zach in it, and I don’t know why.  Is it my brain or my heart that keeps reaching back to him.  I try not to think about him that much anymore, so I don’t know if dreaming about him now has any significance.  Maybe it has something to do with last Saturday.

The Cleveland Cavs were playing Detroit again, and luckily we won!  I had asked some of my friends & 20’s Together if anyone wanted to go and see it at Union Station.  Nobody replied and I thought myself doomed to watch it at Stamper’s up the street with my mom in a straight bar.  Suddenly, my pager went off and it was Ed, the newest member of 20’s Together.  He asked if I was still going to Union Station and I said if he wanted to I’d meet him there.  So I got to meet him around 8:30pm and we shared an appetiser together.  He’s from a different part of Ohio and here for a summer internship.  He told me it would be a lot of work and he’d be very busy.  He let me know of his other accomplishments with different charities and voluteer groups.  A good tip he gave me about finding a job is through volunteering for a group, any group.  If I had more time I would, but for now I only have that one Saturday where I help with the community meal.

I sorta’ liked him, and since I haven’t been on a date in years, was hoping he’d maybe go with me to a show at Hilarities.  The next day he said he had a prior commitment and that he’ll be so busy with his internship he just wanted to be friends.  That’s fine with me, although I still don’t have a guy to take with me to Hilariites this Friday night.  If there’s a gay/bi guy reading this age 21-30 and he lives near Cleveland, OH, email me or IM me by Wednesday night and maybe we can work something out.  It’s the comedian on Comedy Central/MAD TV Frank Caliendo.

http://www.frankcaliendo.com/

So now I’m kinda’ depressed and thinking about Brad now as well, and what a contrast he is to Zach.  Maybe my mind doesn’t really want the "real" Zach, but maybe the idea of Zach, of the perfect man out there for me.  Maybe my dream was a sign that my future boyfriend is near.  Heh, I wish.

I take it that if I’m looking at guys’ butts more often, then I REALLY need a boyfriend : o)