Back on Track

Dear Diary,

Well I was unsure about calling Ryan last night, but I did.  He said he was glad I called.  He apologized about the night before and said to just ignore him when he’s that drunk.  I don’t know, maybe I guess I have a hard time telling how buzzed he is.  He said he was sorry and he’d make it up to me somehow.  Then we just talked about our days.  He’s still going with me to Cedar Point on Saturday.  I called my bro Marc to see if he’s going with us.  He said he’s not sure and to call him Friday.  I’m definately spending Friday night at home with my mother, since I’ve been away at Ryan’s that last few Friday nights.

So anyway I forgive Ryan, and he’s really looking forward to Cedar Point on Saturday, and the potluck I’m taking him to Sunday afternoon.  He tells me I’m the best thing that’s happened to him in his life.  He also says he’s not going to drink beer for a while.  I’m not niave enough to believe him, even though in my heart I hope he will cut down.  It’s not like he drinks everyday, he can’t afford it with no job & his dad not giving him any money.  But I sure do spoil him.  He did enjoy the hockey game, and on Nov 1st we’re going to the circus, which after Ticketmasters’ fees came to about $48 for 2 people.  That’ll probably be it for the year.  And I asked if he was planning to have me over his relatives during the Thanksgiving/holiday time, and he said sure 😮 )  So it’ll be like I have a second family.

I was going to go to the PFLAG meeting last night, but then I changed my mind.  I just didn’t feel like talking or to begin thinking of "coming out" to my mother.  Even though lately it’s been on my mind because I’m with Ryan.  Who knows what’ll happen.  And my brother has drama with his fiance too, so I feel where he’s coming from.

I got my Transylvania Twist DVD in the mail yesterday and had to watch it right away, I love that movie.  It’s from 1989 and was about $30, I guess it is rare nowadays.  I have to show it to Ryan and his mom Friday night after I’m done hangin’ out with my mother.  Well my lunch break is over half over, and I’m tired.  The End.