“I’m tired, so tired..
I’m tired of having sex, I’m spread so thin…I don’t know who I am."
I cut all of my hair off. Something had to change, I don’t know why, but yesterday I just couldn’t stand it anymore, it had to go.
I had my friend cut it, she did a really great job. I slept at her place…I really am so tired of sex.
I’m tired of relationships in general, including friendships…I’m just tired of it all you know? I guess some people call it "the grind" or something, I don’t know if that applies to normal everyday interactions or not…I don’t know.
I weighed myself last night, I am down to 162.
I want to lose about 7 more pounds.
I can do it…eating is for suckers anyway, it kind of makes me sick when I do it now, it just never sits right…and I am never hungry anymore, nothing ever sounds good, nothing is satisfying, it’s just not even enjoyable.
It’s weird.
I dunno…I don’t know anything.
I don’t understand why I am so hell bent on self destruction…
and I lose a lot of friends because for some reason I seem to dismantle the people around me at the same time.
Anarchy in the UK has nothing on this.
I think I’m going to stop drinking and go back to drugs.
It seemed like at least I felt better physically, and I need something.
Don’t make me kick your ass.
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hmmm well, i wouldnt replace alcohol with drugs… seems thats a worser of two evils… could sound stupid….but… what about joining a GYM!? it saves me from insanity on many an occassion.
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