Debt consolidation
New job.
Going to get a debt consolidation loan.
Pay off all the debts I owe.
Make life easier for someone else.
I tried to make it easy in the first place…but I do everything wrong.
Tried to show her how much I love her.
fail fail fail fail fail.
Always.
fail.
I’m just a worthless fucking drunk and I can’t wait until it catches up to me.
I’m also crazy.
Like…seriously fucking crazy.
Not like I hear things or take a shit in a frying pan or anything.
I just have absolutely no control over my emotions.
Or my addictions.
I have no control over anything.
And all it would take to gain control would be to just…do it.
To just say "fuck this" and do it.
But I don’t.
Because I can’t.
Because I just don’t.
I guess I like misery. I must get off on it.
Hahaha.
God I’m such a fucking loser.
Can’t be anymore of a loser than I. Not like it’s a contest though, right. Good luck w/the new job.
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Miserable people are the most artistic. As long as you can hold together some semblance of [society’s definition of] normality, you’re fine. “**** this!” is a great way of looking at life, actually- you’ll do more of what you want and less of what’s expected of you.
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Also you **** in frying pans.
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You don’t like misery, though sometimes it is pretty sexy. You can’t get over your addiction alone, Dane. You have to accept help. I know that sounds lame, but you have more going for you than being drunk. A FUCK OF A LOT MORE. I can see that you’re trying, and that’s good. I’d like to see you happy so step to it Mister!
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That video/song was effin’ amazing by the way. The air humping was my favorite. Friends also enjoy, so thank you for your talents. 🙂
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