Writing Free…

In these late morning hours I feel alone. But then again, I feel alone alot. One would think that I’d be used to it by now. Am I so different that I can’t find anyone enough like me to want to be with me? Things with Ayeka haven’t been the best lately, we’re just too different. But that’s basically why we have the polygamous/friend with benefits thing instead of a more serious relationship. *shrughs* I’ve just been so confused lately. Too much Tenchi complex I guess. I talked about Angel in an earlier entry. I do like her and think she’s pretty great, but from what I know about her, we just wouldn’t be a good match. I guess to make my position a little clearer I’d better explain more about me and what I’m looking for. For a long part of my life I’ve been the loner..not becuase I want to be though. I honestly make an effort to go out and meet people, get involved in things, but even doing all that I still end up as the one on the side, the loner in the corner. As I said in my song, “…I sing the song of the knight that walks alone, only by destiny and not by choice”. To give honest (and I mean I’m being completely honest here) info on me…

I’m 20 years old. I look young for my age, always have. Yet the very few that have gotten close to me have told me that the longer they know me the older I look. I feel that I have lived longer than my 20 years. The people that know me best say the same. At this point it’s too early in the late morning hours to go into detail on this point but let’s just say that I’ve touched only very lightly on certain aspects of my past. Anyway, as for things I do I inline skate, I’ve been playing the violin for close to ten years. I like to watch movies, I like going out to do things, see new places and have new experiences, I’ve been training in martial arts since I was nine. I play video games, I read, I love music in many different forms. I have a taste for Japanese culture. I can bake and cook. I bake better than I cook though. I like to take pictures. I wear contacts (clear ones). I used to have braces. I have puppy dog brown eyes ( I didn’t come up with that description). I’m on the slim side. I’m Hispanic ( I don’t belive that I’ve mentioned that before). I have a pretty high sex drive (told you I’d be speaking honestly). I’ve always been known for being a nice guy and a gentleman though. I’m also a hopeful romantic. I can be a bit moody at times, but then again I can also be pretty hyper at times as well. I write poetry, songs, and stories (like you don’t know ;). Basically I’d like a girl that can enjoy these things with me, and teach me some new things to enjoy. This is baically me. Of course there’s more (there’s more to every person than what they can write down). I guess at this point I just want to be special to someone, instead of just that one on the side, the loner, the scapegoat for everyone else, the one left behind. I just want to be that someone to somebody. This is a free write but it’s gone in a direction I didn’t mean. But at this point I’m too tired to get it back on track. Good night to all and beautiful dreams.

Tenchi

“…the cultivation of the mind, the body, and the soul, and we must always cultivate the soul.”

P.S. Sorry about not finishing that story yet, I haven’t really been as creative lately. I’ll try to write the next part soon.