Tired

Usually when I say tired its because I didn’t get enough sleep again. But that’s not it. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of helping and being nice and not getting more than token good manners in return.

I’m tired of trying to figure out what I’m somehow supposed to know. I’m tired of finding so much shallowness in the world, in people.

I’m tired of pursuing instead of being pursued. I refuse to settle, I refuse to make a persona, I refuse to lie, I refuse to play the game. Whatever the hell the game is in the first place.

I’m tired of being lonely, but I will not find those I can only connect with on the surface just to not be alone. I refuse what this world has come to offer. There’s something more. I will find it. I don’t care if others don’t believe it exists. I’m not interested in their opinions. I will find what I’m looking for.

But for now, I’m tired of looking for anything.

StarByStar

March 2, 2009

It’s nice to see some honest people still exist. Keep hanging in there.

Chaosbride

nothing wrong with raising the bar for yourself. Here’s to you finding what you are looking for and it being exactly what you need!

I know the feeling…sorry boss.

morisgata

March 3, 2009

i’ve told you this before. we all have superficial friends. Its just knowing who is really is there for you. From all my “close friends” want to know how many actually where there for me when i dealt with the brain tumor? ONE, and everyday i’m thankful for her in my life. there’s all kinds of friends

there are people who are only there to be your clubbing/shopping friends. friends who are only there for a short time.& yes there’s the friends who are lifetime compions. You know i love you. But stop it, stop making excuses. go out and do things that make you happy and while you are out & meet someone good if not oh well.You are young and healthy.

You are the only one who could make yourself happy. so go out and make yourself happy, stop looking for somoene else to fill that void.

PrettyEyedPirate

March 9, 2009

It does exist, hon, sometimes it just doesn’t like being easily found. I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time. 🙁 But maybe now that you have what you want and expect in perspective, you will find what you’re looking for. *snugglehug* <3

jada

March 10, 2009

ryn: they did a survey for it. you will find it 🙂 i know you will