The Mask Has Cracked

I’ve finally done it. I just couldn’t handle it. I actually cracked in front of someone. I’ve never done it before, everytime I’ve ever gotten really bad, or even had one of my nervous breakdowns, it’s always been away from everyone. But this time I did it in front of someone. I had no idea what I was saying. Things just came out. I think I hurt someone. I should have just walked away, just gone to sleep. But no, that was too easy. I had to stay and let my darkness show to someone else. Even make someone believe that they were at fault. I’m pretty sure that this doesn’t make any sense to anyone, save that person maybe. If it does, I am truly sorry. I never meant for the things I said to come out. You weren’t supposed to hear those things. I just don’t know what to do. My darkness has just flowed over me so deeply this time. I need someone here. I don’t know exactly what to do. I feel so alone. I’m so tired, tired of life. I actually cried myself to sleep last night. I hardly ever cry. But last night I actually cried so much that I cried myself asleep. I just want some love. Even if it’s just for a few minutes, I want someone here to love me. Someone to hold me. I know I’m rambling, so I think I’ll stop now. For all I know, I’ve said too much once again.

Damien