Liquid Color

Good eve to all.  It’s a shifting kind of evening.  I feel many different emotions as ideas and memories shift through my streams of conciousness.  I have days like this from time to time.  Part of this way of being is probably my shifting sleep patterns.  I’ve never been to the ocean, but I believe that my mood in these times is like that. It constantly moves and shifts, the tide changes, the color of the water changes.  Let’s see how well I can describe these things.
  I’m happy because I’ve recieved good news today.  My entry that was titled “Sad Day” I decided to revise, with the help of my English professor, and I sent to the university newspaper as a letter to the editor.  I recieved an email today to confirm my permission that they print it in next week’s issue.  I was very pleased to say the least. 
  I’m inspired to move and flow and do something wonderful and great, and maybe even heroic, as I listen to the music on my computer.  It moves me as it always does, but in this time where my emotions shift and flow like liquid color, the music affects me even further.
  I’m concerned for Marie.  I haven’t had the most normal of lives and my ideals and beliefs are quite different than most other people.  Plus, I’m kinda screwed up (she says I’m not, but I know just from my family’s medical history that I am, but oh well).  I worry sometimes that I can’t give her what she wants.  I know that she rathers that I not worry about such things, but I don’t like causing concern or worry in those I care about.
  I feel full of promise and rebellion.  There’s a project that I’ve been considering for awhile now, but I just haven’t gotten around to doing it.  As I said earlier, I have very different ideas about many things than most people, including religion, philosophy, relationships, love, life, just many different subjects.  I’ve been thinking for quite some time about writing my ideas down.  I’ve even purchased some blank books for such purpose, but I have yet to write a single word.  Maybe once holidays come around I’ll start on this project.
  I believe there’s more but for now I do believe that will do.  Take care all and good eve.

-Damien