Knowledge & Answers…

don’t always go hand in hand. I’ve found that the more I’ve found about myself, what I want, and what I need, the more questions spring up. Logic would suggest that the more you know about yourself in those aspects the more answers you’d have. But then again, who said life was logical? Both Ayeka and I have found more and more recently how opposite we are. Which makes our being in a polygamous relationship all the more sensible. I know that our relationship will end one day, that she will not be the one I marry. To some that might sound really bad. But to me it just makes sense. We know that the relationship we have right now works, but we also know that trying to make it into more is just going to hurt either one or both of us. But knowing this and accepting this as I have leaves another thing open. When do I find the one for me. As I’ve seen from some of my fellow older ODers that I shouldn’t be holding my breath over this, but I also know that some of my fellow ODers my age have already found someone special. *sighs* I think I just get lonely sometimes. I’m not exactly sure why this has been in my mind so much lately. In any case I hope that it either shifts to the back of my mind or I do find that someone so I can happily tell that thought to shut the hell up. I find myself rambling on so I’ll take my leave now. Good night to all and beautiful dreams.

Tenchi

“…the cultivation of the mind, the body, and the soul, and we must always cultivate the soul.”