Be Still Now, Don’t Cry…

  Good eve to all.  Lots going on here, but nothing exciting.  Finals week has begun.  I went to the university today and found out that our instructor told us the wrong day for our exam.  I wasn’t too happy with that.  If I didn’t have to work later, I would have been pissed that I had to come at all.  Anyways, I spent some time with Marie.  And some time reading Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.  I probably should have spent more time practicing for my music exams, but I really don’t feel like it.  I know I should though.  I’ll probably go practice after I finish writing this.  If someone knows a way to get a sound clip online, even if its on a free webpage or something, I’ll put it up and you can hear what I sound like when I sing.  While I was reading one of Marie’s friends/aquiantances was looking for a practice room and opened the door to see if ours was empty.  When she saw me just sitting on the floor reading a book she kind of gave me a dirty look, but she left.  I know she doesn’t like me much, we share a difference of opinions on relationships.  I thought about that discussion today and I figure that I probably got her mad at me for making her see some things that most men in general and probably her boyfriend in specific secretly wish for but know most girlfriends aren’t into.  I don’t think she appriciated being enlightened to that fact.  Oh well.  Its just been one of those days tho, probably because I’m really tired.  I don’t feel all that great.  Maybe I’m just dissatisfied with my life right now.  I just want this week to be over.  I have my voice jury tomorrow and I couldn’t care less.  Whatever happens, oh well.  Hopefully I’ll be able to be a bit more motivated tomorrow.  Wish me luck.  In any case, things are not what I wish they were, but what else is new.  I should probaby go though, this isn’t doing me much good. 

  Oh yeah, the title comes from a lyric from a song called River Lullaby.  Its from the Prince of Egypt movie.  Its kind of sad I guess, but I made a cd once that just looped over and over on that song and I would play it in order to sleep when I was at NMSU.  I just felt so alone, no real friends, the friends that I had stabbing me in the back.  I was never the type that got a second look, I’m still not.  Just something about that song was soothing, something comforting.  Maybe its sad that I needed that, but I guess I don’t really care.  Here’s the lyrics though.  Good eve to all.

-Damien

Hush now, my baby
Be still love, don’t cry.
Sleep like you’re rocked by the stream.
Sleep and remember
my lullaby.
And I’ll be with you when you dream.

Drift on a river
that flows through my arms.
Drift as I’m singing to you.
I see you smiling
so peaceful and calm.
And holding you, I’m smiling too.
Here in my arms
safe from all harm.
Holding you, I’m smiling too.

Hush now, my baby
Be still love, don’t cry.
Sleep like you’re rocked by the stream.
Sleep and remember this river lullaby.
And I’ll be with you when you dream.
I’ll be with you when you dream.