Today.

Today, I am hurting.

You completely blindsided me yesterday.  I just don’t understand how we go from the day before to nothing.

I know you need some time to think…some time to bottle it up and try to deal with it……but you also need to talk to me.

I don’t know what to do.  I don’t know if I should call you, text you or leave you a message.  I just want you to know I miss you.  I feel like not only did I lose my bf, I lost my best friend too.

I know she got to you.  But in a couple days when that blows over, are you going to feel the same?  Or are you going to miss me?  We can’t go from all the time we spend together, on the phone, texting and facebooking to scaling it back without you missing me.  I want you to miss me.

We have something incredible going.  Is it right?  No, probably not but we both knew that when it started.  We thought we could have a little fun, fill the void without any feelings getting in the way.  Guess what…that didn’t happen on both our parts. 

We agreed when this started that we would always be friends….but I want to be your gf still.  I still want to feel your touch, feel your kiss, hear you laugh……

So for now…Im just going to continue hurting.  I’ll leave you to deal with this for a few days, then we’re going to talk and Im going to hope you’re going to change your mind. 

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