New Year’s Alone

 Spending New Year’s alone again for the second time. I have to say, it sucks! No one should be able to spend New Year’s alone!! I would be that someone to spend it with anyone else if they were to spend it alone. I just think that it’s an important holiday. Something to share it with someone special. My parents have gone to Mexico to celebrate it with my grandparents as for me i chose to stay behind and celebrate it alone with my son because well…Mexico is boring. I think as being the first time to go to Mexico as a separated woman would be kind of weird & with a baby. I think it would of been really boring! 
I’ve been going through an emotional roller coaster these past few weeks. Ever since school ended. Ive been sad, depressed, happy, lazy, useless, worthless and whatnot. I don’t know what to do with my life. I dont know what i want either. What should i do? I know what i don’t want in my life. I don’t want to make the wrong choices. I want to be proud of myself in the future. I just want to be happy. I guess time will tell. I am anxious to know where life will take me. Im just so scared of it to be a disaster.