What a fucking day

I was in HR for almost two hours. I’m exhausted. These bitches are crazy. But I’m worse…and crazier. So much is happening to me…not sure why. They say when a lot of bad things happen then something good is going to happen. Smh…

my skin is broken out it’s ridiculous. I want to starve myself just so I can at least have a nice figure but nowadays, I’m back to stress eating. I’m eating way less though. Today I had a chicken tender, lettuce and tomato, a few fries, a few bites of Mac&cheese, two bites of a bread roll and a pear. When I got home, I had a few pieces of leftover lettuce form a salad, two hot Cheetos and 7 almonds. Starting now, I’m hoping i wont eat until I see Anabel. I may have to wear my mask because the mom has a terrible flu. I will tell her that I feel a little sick so I’m wearing my mask. Or ask if I can go home after work due to not deleing well.
unstopped working out but maybe tomorrow will be a new day. All I know is that need to fight up…starting with getting a more defined back. Then I’ll move to my stomach and may calf muscles.
I’m over all of this bullshit.  But until I finish it.
I realize now that I have to be on time…early even. Start going to bed by 10 and out the door no later than 7am. It’s better to wait 30 min then late…

Desr Father God,

You see all that I’m going through. I’m unhappy about these women at my job. I’m not sure what to do. Please guide me. Amen