Movie night

I haven’t thought of a title yet but I’m sure by the end of this entry I will….

Dear Jesus,

im experiencing a little bit of heaven right now but still experiencing sadness too. I’m sad I can’t enjoy a warm bath. I’m happy that it’s still early and I’m already in bed. I’m sad I have upper back fat. I’m happy I have left over pizza in the oven. I’m sad thinking about how dirty my apartment is and I wish I had $200 to just pay for it to get cleaned. I’m sad because I want a massage but I don’t want to pay the $65. I’m thankful I have a job but I’m sad I have to go there five days a week. I don’t know what to say. I don’t want to come across ungrateful…but I guess that’s how it sounds. The good news I have the whole weekend to catch up on everything. I pray that my mindset changes. I’m going to finish watching “my old ass” and then start another movie and go to bed at 10pm. I love you … amen