CyclingChick

July 11, 2003

Out of Control…

There’s nothing like a little confession session to ease this Catholic gal’s guilt. If you can’t deal with the shock of discovering I’m not perfect, please skip this entry. :p

On WW…

Ok, I suck this week. My appetite has been ridiculous and I’ve satisfied every craving…in the quantity of my choice. Why? Work has been hellish, so I’ve been snacking to ease the pain. I’ve also had a “I don’t give a fuck” attitude about counting Points. Tri training is going strong, so my workouts have been great. However, you can’t eat pizza, chips, and B&J ice cream and expect to lose weight, right? Oy. My home scale says I’m up 5 lbs, but I’m not worried. At first I thought this was the beginning of another 4-week hiatus (remember the break I took last summer that caused a 9 lb gain?). After thinking about it, I realized that I have been very strict with my eating plan since January. While it has helped me lose 30 lbs this year, I think it’s time to be a little less restrictive…even if that means slowing my losses down a bit. Why? because even though I eat healthy 98% of the time, it is NOT normal to have a week of buckwild crazy eating. Aunt Flo is also here and hormones may be partially responsible, but I can’t let the red-headed bitch take all the blame. This week is shot, but I’m going to start fresh tomorrow. Wednesday’s official weigh-in will be interesting, but I’ll deal with it and move forward. I’m just a badass like that. LOL

On a more serious note, please don’t waste precious time sending me emails trying to help me avoid “falling off the wagon”. Last summer’s support emails were great…but there were also a few nasty ones…trying to insult me back on track, I suppose. After 2.5 years and 170 lbs lost, it takes more than a bad week to bring me down.

On Men…

The msytery makeout session was with my “friend” Jeff. You’ll remember him as my buddy that I started seriously crushing on a couple of years ago. He knew what my feelings were and insisted on treating me like his little sister. I accepted that we would never leave the friends zone and things were cool again. However, once I lost a big chunk of weight, Jeff started treating me differently. Our normal sibling-like conversations turned sexual. I was and still am resentful towards him for not being willing to take a chance until I lost weight. I know you can’t fault someone for what they find attractive…but we’ve known each other for 5 years and I refuse to believe that he just now realized he’s attracted to my personality. Bastard. Anyway, I’ve been avoiding him for months and finally agreed to have dinner with him a few weeks ago. Things were cool throughout the entire evening…until the end. Walking back to the car, hormones kicked in and we ended up at his house. Big mistake. After too much mugging down on the couch, he made a comment that I “look so great now” (among other things) and I went off. We haven’t talked since then and that’s fine with me. I need time to cool off and he needs time to stop being a jackass.

On Finances…

I have spent entirely too much money lately. Triathlon is not a cheap sport, so you’d think I’d be a bit thrifty, right? Wrong. I buy something daily as a “reward”. I’ve purchased several outfits, shoes,CDs and books in the last few weeks. Not to mention my ridiculous collection of lipstick and glosses, thanks to the resident ~~crack pusher~~ Avon lady at work. I’m going to have my accountant Mother put me on a budget. I need help. My friends want to take a cruise next year instead of the annual Mardi Gras trip, so I need to start saving…priorities are good, right? :p

So…there you have it. My latest confessions. I haven’t killed anyone or robbed a bank…just put too many things in my mouth *ahem* and needed to be cleansed of my sins to continue on the right path.

Well, the Diva is babysitting her cousin this evening (on a Saturday night…that’s truly sad). I have my very own Harry Potter. He hates the new glasses, but we’re working on changing that.

Until next time…

-C

*big hugs* You’re the best. Don’t ever forget it. This is a journey you’re on and every journey has its hills to climb and valleys to find your way out of. You’re right where you need to be at this moment in your journey. Obviously you are learning a lot about yourself in this process — and sometimes learning situations flat-out suck. But, they do help in the long-run. 🙂 xoxox Me

hes a cutie! lol.. I have sucked with my WW too this week and the exercising has gone out the window this week too.I feel it too. I can tell when i am bad cuz i just feel like blech~! have a great weekend!

Calicakes

July 13, 2003

He is so cute. Girl, Im not one to lecture, because I never really understand how I lose weight with the amount of non-pointing I do. I swear, its the exercise. And, sometimes you just really need a break. I would think especially after 2.5yrs. You are doing awsome, and I have a great black bean recipe( from scratch) if you want it.

Jersey Girl at Heart

There is no wonder why I like you so much! You are one bitchen, bad-ass, stand-up, broad. You refuse to submit! It’s also nice to know you aren’t just a diva… you are human! F*ck anyone who doesn’t understand that! You go on with your bad self. Sometimes I think the reason I respect you so much is not because of your weightloss. I could care less. It is you. Your attitude and approach…

and how you take responsiblility from the result of your actions; those are things that make you a role model. If you did all those things and only lost 50 lbs, I would still respect and admire you as I do today. 🙂

RYN: My message was motivating? No way girlfriend. It was bitchin’ 😛 It begs to be asked… was it at least good muggin’?

TheLassThatSews

you are too way cool. i know that you probably were dreading the *ahem* “concerned” emails, but you tell it like it is and that is how it should be! am w/ Jersey…it’s your attitude and personality that make me admire you so much.

feb06momma

I have had a crush on a friend for 4yrs. We flirt, joke, and hang out all the time. He happens to like the Barbie doll type, however. Sometimes I wonder if he’ll like me when I’ve lost the weight and also how I’d feel about that.

Serilen

Wow, your WW and Finances seem to mirror my life right now, too. Strength to you, and strength to me too. :)–

WW Diva, I was sooo inspired by your weight loss story. Somehow I just stumbled onto your page and then I signed up for this OD and I had to tell you, you’re great. I too overweight (346) and I have decided to take the journey. I’m in a great group OA, I have a nutritionist and I’m following a food plan. Things are going great and I’m really happy about my progress thus far. Thanks!

Atrevida

July 14, 2003

That’s right diva, you’ve done wonderfully and one “bad” week is nothing…. That lil’ Harry Potter is too darn cute.

You’re still a rock star if you ask me. One weekend of ho-ho’s isn’t gonna change that. That kinda sucks about the boy. I’ve always hated that…like people who give you the “You have such a pretty face…but…”

you are definently entitled to a week off the wagon! I’m sure you’ll be even more ready to tackle being your 98% healthy diet person again. It’s good that you aren’t stressing and can accept that you just need to regroup. Even if you took the summer off(which we know you won’t do ;)) you’d still be doing great.

Baseballgirl

ryn: No, I never sent it, I just got it a few weeks ago. I sent you red beans and rice from cooking light. Send me your email address again.

what a little cutie. The glasses are great. And what a great way to spend a Sat evening with a little man you love! 🙂

Inspiring, as always. RYN: Just had a time of making sure I was on the right track with Wolf. I think I am having some cold feet, too.

fatcat

July 17, 2003

“satisfied every craving…” good for you! That is what I did for 2 weeks leading up to my weigh-in this past Saturday…we CAN satisfy the cravings without the quantity, though, but you know just as well as me that is easier said than done. My boney-ass leader says “You CAN have just 1 Krispy Kreme.” I’m like, HAAAAAAAA! As for Jeff…you go girl for speaking up!!!

I think he looks totally cute with the glasses! People are so rude. I mean, if you can lose 170, you can certainly lose more. You can splurge every now and then. In three months, if you’re still “splurging,” then people could politely inquire. . .