K honest I’m going to bed soon

It’s after midnight. I’m gonna head to bed soon. I got home two and a half hours ago and I’ve just been opening some mail and turning the heat up again and drinking a couple of non-alc beers and watching Youtube on my SmartTV. I texted with a few friends on the way back over to Toronto about Kate. They are pretty happy for me. I went back and read a bunch of old entries here, and I feel like I am ready for something real romance wise. I think I’ve opened a space up for Kate to potentially have a good chance.

I also really realized that if Jessie came back wanting to suddenly get with me, I would turn her down in a second flat. I’ve realized based on what happened between us that she isn’t compatible with me. We have very different communication styles. And she really bears a grudge. And she can’t be open and honest. And I think if she was my girlfriend, the way she rages when she’s upset, fuck that would fucking suck ass. I’d hate it. I’d probably dump her after our first fight when she would do the silent treatment on me or something.

And I don’t know Kate yet. She might be awful too. But there’s a chance she could be really lovely and wonderful also. And I want to find out. So I am excited for that.

Anyway I’m gonna sleep now cause I gotta wake up and get on a bus.