decisions to make

 

 

Recently, I’ve been weighing the benefits/drawbacks of getting a second, more flexible part time job versus sucking it up and taking a full time position that will allow me to utilize my degree and possibly earn me a bit more money.  Things with Aaron’s schooling are crawling at a slothlike pace, and it’s likely to be months before he gets to working steadily and fulltime, so in the meantime, it’s up to me to provide. 

I don’t mind going to work everyday and being the one to pay the bills, but I won’t say that I’m not at least a teeny bit resentful that all the responsibility has fallen on my shoulders again.  I’m trying to deal with those feelings honestly, because I know there isn’t much that can be done about the situation right now. 

Last week I submitted my resume to five or six different companies who were looking for Assistant or Entry Level Managers.  I’ve already had one call back about an interview, for a Motherhood Maternity store as a Management Representative (basically a liason between the regional manager and the individual stores).  I’m calling back tomorrow to schedule an interview. 

Should I feel bad, if I accept a position that has some responsibility attached if I fully plan to not be there for the long term?  Long term, I want to be home with my kids, and doing photography part-time (or as family allows).  I want the center focus of my life to be my family, not taking care of someone else’s business. 

I can commit to working for a few years, I guess, and I may do that.  Aaron and I have read the Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey, and we’re starting the baby steps on his financial plan to get our money in order so we can live a debt free life and not worry about money in the future.  I can work full time for a few years if that means paying our debt off early and more money in the bank to buy land and build a house (we plan to build without getting a mortgage – we want to pay cash for the whole thing). 

I’m just kind of upset that I have to work, when this was supposed to be the period where we going to be moving to a new income bracket.  I don’t like it when things don’t go as planned; it really unsettles my inner control freak. 

It helps just to let it out, I guess.  I just don’t like working full time.  I never have; I was never one of those people who was ambitious and wanted a career and to climb some invisible ladder of success.  I measure success in different ways, I guess.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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