09/26/2009

I feel like crap. 

Aaron made some brewed tea the other night and forgot about it while it was steeping (for an hour!).  So, it was REALLY strong, but REALLY good.  I had three glasses.  

And woke up the next morning with a RAGING UTI.

I’m in so much pain, and I can’t find much relief for it.  I’ve been drinking water and cranberry juice and taking AZO, but it’s only getting worse.  I tried calling the clinic to see how much a visit would cost me – $115 (that I don’t have!) for a five minute visit so they can write me a scrip for antibiotics.  If I can’t get my midwife to call in a scrip for me, I’m going to have to go to the ER tomorrow.  Sucks, but that’s my only option, unless I want to write a bad check to pay for a clinic visit.  And I don’t want to do that. 

The home birth meetup is tonight, and I’m missing it, which also has me down in the dumps.  I was really looking forward to spending time with the girls. 

And it’s raining.  Blah.

I’m just in an all around funk that I can’t snap out of. 

I also need to take a pregnancy test, if only to snap myself out of obsessing over the .001% chance I might be pregnant.  The first time Aaron I had sex after we got back together, we both forgot about a condom.  I haven’t had any kind of period since April, so it’s HIGHLY unlikely I’m pregnant and I don’t have any symptoms, but I don’t have a period due to reassure me.  So, I need to take a test and have it come up negative so I can stop being neurotic. 

Chloe isn’t helping my bad mood today.  Every other word out of her mouth is "no."  

Gah…I just need to go to bed.