07/12/2009
Location: the kitchen
Mood: confused and angry
Listening to: SuperWhy on PBSkids
Every time I think I’ve come to some sort of decision regarding Aaron, something pops up that makes me question the whole situation all over again.
Aaron lost his job on Friday.
For stealing money from his boss.
Apparently this has been going on for more than a month, and I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s been going on for the duration of our separation.
And I…well, I’m furious to say the least. And confused. And ashamed of him. And so hurt that he keeps being selfish and putting his own wants over the needs of his family.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Right now is when I wish I had someone to sit me down and say "Okay, this is the choice you should be making, and this is what you should do after that."
Because, really, I’m just tired of trying to figure things out for myself and coming up empty handed.
Eesh.
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*hugs* xx
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you don’t deserve him [or all this crap]. you really don’t. there’s something and someone out there sooooo much better for you and worth your energy, time, and love :-
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geez!! 🙁 im so sorry. it would be seriously nice to have a shoulder angel. everybody’s life is different and I understand you choice which ever way you go. For me it usually comes down to the fact that i love him dearly and his goods outway his bads. good luck. 🙁
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Oh my goodness. You need to have a great big think about whether being with him is the right thing long term. You seemed to happy/relieved when you wrote on here about the decision to get divorced. I wonder whether reading back will help your thought process? good luck. xx
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ryn: My english class is fine so far – doesn’t seem to be too many special people in there, but math? Good gravy. I don’t know why we just don’t start off with counting money with them… I wish I could just take all the tests now. lol
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