Too soon, it will always be too soon.

You know, I still occasionally feel that sense that I can recover some type of friendship with TS after some "time" had passed. It is evident as time passes it is indeed easier to talk to her in a normal and non-delusional fashion, but the "friendship" aspect, I think will never develop in the common sense meaning the word conveys. I trust her – in many aspects more than most, and in some aspects less than my actual "friends" (in the traditional sense), but for some reason, she is just a bookmark for old resentment and a generally distaste of life. Perhaps not the strongest distaste (that’s indwelt and hasn’t – THANKFULLY – reared its ugly head, I don’t think it will ever again, having defeated those deamons some time ago).

It seems like just a remnant of old constructs that need to be eroded by time. I feel healed, but slightly irritated by the cure. The future looks bright and beautiful, if I can just get passed now, I’ll be alright 🙂