Work

Dear Diary:
One of my readers asked if I am working while going to nursing school since I don’t post much here about it anymore. I couldn’t leave her a note since I don’t have access to her page so I’ll do an entry on it.

Yes, I work full time and go to nursing school at night. It is a long day as I am up around 5:30 AM and on school nights am in bed around 11:30 PM.

Work still sucks though there is some light on the horizon. My boss threw me under the bus last week at budget meetings saying he knew how the company could save $xxxx by stopping my stipend for doing the website. Thankfully his boss and the CFO said that there have been no discussions to do that and are not going to do that. My boss continues to prove that he has it out for me.

On Friday we had a meeting about my department, which needs to be reorganized. We don’t have enough employees and we are incurring lots of overtime in order to get the work done. My boss’ boss had his assistant sit in on the meeting (and future meetings) because he knows the problems with my boss and I. My boss came up with a plan that is reactionary and will not work as he is ignoring or in denial of the root causes affecting my department. I laid the other issues out on the table (root causes) and some other out of the box ideas on how to fix the problems. My boss responded to each of the points with excuses on why things can’t be done. After the meeting, I met with the assistant and laid out a whole lot more that I couldn’t say in front of my boss. This whole thing is going to blow up soon. I just have a feeling. Though I would welcome the blow up at this point. I am so stressed and completely done with work. They have destroyed my morale and the job that I once truly loved and was very good at!

Homelife continues to suck as well. L hasn’t changed a damn thing since out talk last week about how my emotional needs were not being met in the relationship. Saturday night we went out to dinner with a friend from school and her fiance. We got done with dinner and went for a walk. L wanted to go home after dinner. I forced her to stay out and after the walk we went for dessert. Too damn bad. We never get out and I’m not cutting it short because you don’t want to go out. The kids are no help at home, G is up her ass constantly and the kid just argues with me about everything and refuses to listen. When I say no, L gives in and let’s him get away with what he wants because it is easier. It has fucked up our homelife. I’m also done with home.

The stress of these two things plus the long days and studying with school have taken a toll on me. I was ready to explode last night. Something is going to snap soon.

On a positive note, I got a new watch as school requires a watch with a second hand and not a digital watch as they claim the digital numbers screw up your count when taking pulses and respirations. It’s a timex and has a nice face to it. Easy to read.