Mental Exhaustion

Dear Diary:
I am mentally exhausted. I don’t have an ounce of energy to do anything. I have major things that are just sapping my energy…

WORK: I have returned to work post kidney stones. I am refusing to work out of my job title as they have been forcing me to do for the past year. I am backed by the department of personnel job descriptions. If they create problems, I’m going to an attorney. I am done!

HOME: L continues to do nothing. She and I had a fight last night. Everytime I try to talk to her about the issues she deflects responsibility (like I’m never home because of school) and then says she doesn’t want to fight. Meanwhile the house looks like shit, we have no food in the house, she and I have not had intimacy in months and the kids run amok because she doesn’t follow through with my punishments on them because she picks whatever is least likely to affect her immediately.

SCHOOL: In spite of knowing the end goal and that I chose this and that I do enjoy it, I’m still tired. It is a drain on me as I bust my ass to get good grades so I have a better chance to get into nursing school. But this is good energy spent.

AMBULANCE: I’m just tired of the favortism and stupidity. Some moron keeps damaging the tires on the ambulance because they don’t know how to drive. Because they don’t know who did it, all drivers now have to do paperwork regarding the tires prior to a call and after a call. The trustees didn’t buy the safety jackets that I proposed but will spend money on stairs and paving. Members are expendable… the building will be here longer! 

I feel like a used rag that has been wrung out!