I’m never ALONE but i’m so LONELY

 Loneiness has away of creeping up on you. You always think u stay at home because you’re tired or you’re broke or you just don’t fell like going out. THEY are all excuses to deny that one is LONELY .
When i say that i am never alone i mean it every day i babysit one of my many nephews or nieces usually in pairs. I am the only one in my family over the age of 18 who has only ONE child. I don’t mine taking care of other kids but Hoenstly it’s getting to the point where i switch my plans to babysit. i finally realized i am LONELY AS HELL. I need someone to talk to . Yeah i have best friends but sometimes their are things you can’t chat with even your best friends. I stay at home all day after work , play  PS2 with my son, draw, do laundry cook watch what ever 8:00-11:00pm show sare one then after that i turn the ac on and i get online. I go into chats to chat with random people. I rarely go outside to socialize with anyone new. At parties i am bored shitless. i want to leave almost as soon as i get there.SO i relaized the closest thing i have come to as a date is when my EX (anthony’s dad) paid for my dinner on mathers’s day at some Buffet resraunt. How depressing. i need to date. I feel so old and i’m only 24. u’d think i’d be out there dating & sleeping around but NO my ass is at home all alone.

 i spend most of my time on my computer or treadmill. downloadind music, surfing the web. and still my ass is lonely. so very lonely.

~*DOlly*~