hello, goodbye

Hey hey hey. Whaddup whaddup. I just wanted you to know that you fucked me up. Took my strength i had to carry on. Took my pride…what else is there to live on. Good morning good night good afternoon than goodbye. Was it a waste of time? Quit fuckin with my mind. Why is it that i cant say goodbye. Why is it that the good stuff in life is hard to find. Tomorrow or the next day i wont be happy ill tell you why. Cause Im livin life in a way that i dont really like. I know better yet I wont let myself strive. I choose to struggle because i get to have you in my life. You know my name my secrets my stories, we share good times bad times regrets love hapiness success and sorries. You choose to leave me but its so hard for me to leave you. Especially when we are friends like we are right now still you lie through your teeth. I aint stupid Im aware and in love. So high low whatever we fall crash and get back up. But how come i feel nailed to the ground. How come i let you push me around? Why is it that i let you? Ya i guess its my fualt. But I really wish you would take responsibilty for your part. Im doin so bad this is a new start…but its a stupid start on my part. I still wish this isnt how this its going to end. Not for me I deserve to move on and be happy again. One day I hope I will be ready. One day one day I hope i let me. One day I will look past this shadow and be free. All i can do is dream…but that shit aint reality. But dreamin is a start. Dreamin to be happy of the idea of life without you. So this is hello but one day i will say goodbye.