02/20/2010

I know it might be unhealthy but i wont let this go. I cant accept it when you tell me no. I know we can make it. Because we were so perfect. Please dont waste it. Remember the day when we met. How happy it was. You always held me and told me you loved me. You were a better day in a hard life. Everytime i fell in love it was strong. Everytime it was great. With you, it was just so perfect. You were better than what i would’ve ever dreamed of. Yet you say i deserve better than you. You need to keep your head high. I know you dont think much of yourself, but you dont even know. You are so nice i can be myself around you. I dont have to try. You accepted descision i ever made. I know i get down sometimes but dont blame yourself. Im still coping with things from the best but just so you know…you’ve always helped me out. I know i can get bitchy with you, i know i can get mad and grumpy and rude. If i could go back i would do my best to stay saine. Ive never been allowed to expresss myself. But if i knew what it would do. I would’ve held back on things and delbt with some of my problems myself. Sorry that i took some of it out on you. But just so you know….it was never you. I still see for ever in you. So im gona fight…because im not gona give up on love when it is so incredibly true.