Whining & Ranting & Pictures

 

*sigh*

*kicks Friday* It did not go anywhere how I wanted it to. L

I haven’t heard from Todd…Which has me feeling utterly miserable. Last night on the phone he asked me if something was wrong…I said no…I should of told him the truth. Told him yes…Told him that I missed him, and that was what was wrong.

I guess I’m still skittish…I need to quit being so. I need to start saying what I’m thinking, and letting him know how I’m feeling. He’s asked me a few times now if something was wrong, and there usually is…But I’m reluctant to say at the time. I should take it as a sign that he can tell…If he didn’t care he wouldn’t be paying attention…Wouldn’t have a clue when something was bothering me.

Anyway…Friday is gone, and I’m guessing my chance to see him for a while again is gone too.

One of the first things he asked me two weeks ago was if I had missed him…I should of told him that I was missing him. I thought I would have a day though…Thought I’d have some time. *sigh*

On top of that…Idiotic Dan calls here around 9, in a foul mood, telling me to tell my ‘Creepy friends’ to stay away from the kids when he has them. *glares at him* It’s not even like HE had them…His thing had them. *rolls eyes*
Apparently she took them to a football game (A Mancelona football game…Why I haven’t a bloody clue, as they don’t go to Mancelona school, and the Critters don’t even like football!)…Sonja seen Reese and said ‘Hi’. Reese asked Sonja if her brother was going to say ‘Hi’. When Harley seen her, he of course wanted to go talk to her (and from what Reese said, Harley was looking miserable prior to that), and went to sit by her for a couple minutes…Where she pointed out that Gunner, Nightmare, and Freshman were there as well. Well, once Harley was finally getting to where he was feeling better, Ann told him that they had to go. Though apparently all the far they had to go was from the stands to the fence.
It’s friggen ridiculous.

To go with that, while I was dropping the Critters off at school, Kristy, one of Sonja’s friends, comes up to me and asks me why Sonja is crying…I hate this! I hate Dan! I wish he’d see how miserable he’s making the Critters and just leave them alone. Neither of them want to go to his house…Neither of them can stand him anymore…They don’t like his wife…They don’t like two of the step-things. Blah.

Got a letter from the insurance I’m trying to get for the Critters…It said they don’t qualify for the one…But they should for the other & that they’ve forwarded the paperwork to that one…I should hear from them in…Oh…45 days!

Get a call from the Health Department…The school sent them a paper in hopes of getting Harley evaluated. They only deal with children 10-22. They told me I’d have to get in contact with the Intermediate School District…Which I have to go through the school to do to. You would think the school would have had that one figured out.

*sigh* I suppose that’s it.

Though I did get 1/3rd of the Halloween goodie bags for the Critter’s classes sewn together…Only 20 more to go. I’ve got 10 of the designs cut out to glue on them…Need the rest of them done…And get them all glued on…(& of course get stuff to stuff in them.)

Yeah…I think sleep is called for.

Couldn’t even focus on my Timothy Spall marathon…All I could think of was Todd.
& while re-reading an entry in Raven’s diary…Talking about her and Neville…The mention of Neville’s green eyes made me think of Todd’s green eyes (& therefore Todd). I just miss him so much. I love him…More than I thought I would ever feel love…It’s nothing like I’ve ever felt before…It is different with him…Somehow realer. Suppose I need to tell him that though.

Raven Loves Todd
Todd Loves Raven (He told me so two weeks ago.)

Oh yeah…Dyed my hair Tuesday…Here are some pictures…

I don’t know why one of these shrank right and the other two didn’t. *rolls eyes at stupid photo programs*  [Todd doesn’t even know I’ve dyed my hair yet. *sigh*]