Ups and Downs…and leveling out

Grimmie and I…are just friends. Tis how things have to be. It is something I understand. I love him, I’ve loved him for a while…but I’m not truly in love with him. Though a trick of my mind had me thinking I might be. Tis complicated…and it required a lot of sorting out and conversation.

Thing of it is…I was happy for a week…Incrediably so…and I was trying hard to hang onto that happiness, and went a little overboard. I’d rather have my friend than anything else though. Grimmie means too much to me. Granted…I think we’ve gotten to a point where it would be wrong to call ourselves brother and sister…that would just be…yeah. *laughs* Still…I think we have strengthened our friendship.

Aside from that…Like he said in his letter…" I’m young and naive"  And he is…I kind of forgot he is still very young…being only 19…for another month. 

A bit of an edit from a previous rpg entry between Raven and Peter…just wanted to get the jist of the thoughts out.

"Do you know the diffrence between loving someone, and being in love with someone?" She asked, staring up at the ceiling.

"I never gave it much thought. Are they not the same?"

"No, there is a diffrence." Raven returned. "Being ‘in’ love with someone means being willing to give them your heart and soul. That they could very well be your world, the reason you wake in the morning. That your world could very well crumble all around you if something were to happen to them."

"Like how you feel about Severus." Peter ventured.

"Yes, like how I feel about Severus." She turned over on her side to face the man beside her. "Do you know what loving someone means?"

"I believe so."

"Loving someone means caring a great deal about them. It means wanting them in your life, not being able to picture your life without them, or at least not wanting to. You know I’m in love with Severus. But…"

"But what?"

"But…I do love you."

"But…you…and…I…"

Raven moved closer to him, covering his mouth with hers, and feeling him relax under her embrace. "It changes nothing you know, I just thought, perhaps, you would want to know."

Peter’s arms wrapped around her, drawing her near. "I’d never ask more than you could give." Leaning her head against his chest, Raven closed her eyes, letting her mind wander once more.

*looks up* Oh my Gods! I’m Peter! *headdesk* *laughs* No…not really…But for a moment…I could of been.

But in all seriousness…Grimmie…I would never ask more than you could give. I got carried away in the moment…having something I hadn’t had for so very long. I was afraid if I didn’t hold onto it…I’d lose it. But there are more imporatant things to worry about losing…I’d rather have you friendship than anything else. *hugs tightly*
And…If you manage to come and see me over the winter holidays…*smiles* We’ll see how things go…but if you’re willing…so am I.

*looks up* How did that get there? *shrugs* Oh well…I’ll got post it as a note to him too I suppose.

So yeah…that’s where things are…