Too tired to come up with a title

Firstly…I want to start this entry off right…With a BIG

WELCOME BACK

To Raya and Ashton (and Bryce) to the wonderful world of roleplay. *tosses confetti* It’s been a long (almost) two weeks. *laughs*

It’s good to have the family back together in proper form. *smiles*

Last night I was a bit of a mental mess. Thing is, as I’m sure most of you have figured out, the marriage is not an overly happy one. In fact it’s pretty much only one on paper (a paper of which I can’t even find my copy…should of taken that as a sign). But I stay because 1) I hate seeing people hurt, and the pet is completely oblivious (or seemingly so anyway)…2) I don’t want to share the kids (which I know may sound selfish, or a bit bitchy…but I also know the pet can’t hardly take care of himself, I know he wouldn’t be able to take care of the kids properly)…3) I don’t want to lose the house (or the property that’s been in my family for quite a few years), and the one loan in the pet’s name has the house as colaterial (sp). Luckily my Mum’s Jeep is no longer an issue, as it’s off the loan that it was on.

Well last night I was feeling like I had nothing to offer anyone…It’s not exactly like I can get into a ‘normal relationship’ (As Mike so graciously pointed out the other day). So basicly I was throwing myself a pity party…and my little brother got the invite. He was…amazingly helpful…or at least tried to be. Proof he does have his sweet moments. (Though now he’s trying to turn one of our other friends into my love slave…*shakes head* He’s quite mental…)

I’m feeling better today though…Even with all my brain’s thoughts. Thoughts I know I don’t have the nerve to follow through on. *is a coward* Brain says I should do what Jessica (Mike’s soon to be ex-wife) did with him…And tell the pet since I can’t give him what he wants/needs that he should go find it elsewhere…Though my brain puts a little added on to it…That if he did, and decided he’d be happier with whoever, then I’d just let him go and be happy…as long as he didn’t cause any trouble. He’d still get to see the Critters, and what not…But I could never even broach any such subject.

Anyway…on to happier thoughts…I collect knives, though I haven’t gotten any in the last couple years. Well while at the flea market Saturday, I found one I liked, and it wasn’t even too much. *smiles* I’d try to explain it…but I’m not sure how to. *laughs* Other than, it’s a ‘bronze’ color (the hilt anyway), and has a sheath of the same thing as it’s hilt…and there are red stones on it. Three on each side of the hilt, on on each side of the sheath. And there is designs on it…but I’ll really have to take a picture.

Seems like there was something else I was going to say…but I can’t for the life of me remeber what it was now.