Too tired for a title

Went to the beach today…I would of rather went and seen Pirates again, but Mum figured the Critters would appreaciate the water more. I suppose she was right. I actually got out knee deep in the water (which doesn’t get much deeper than that anymore, until the drop off). I don’t swim much…Can’t really at the places I use to…the water just isn’t as deep at is use to be. Besides, I mostly went and dove off the dock. I’d run down the dock, and at the last minute, turn around, and jump, flipping backwards into the water. *smiles* It was nice…Impossible now…*sigh* Things change so much as the years pass.

While at the beach, Mike showed up. He was there with Jon, and Jon’s brother, and had Alex with him. Talked to him for a couple minutes, Mum was right there too. Then he

wandered off and I didn’t have to deal with him. So that was good.

After the beach we went and got pizza. And the Critters became wild animals, and lost all ability to listen it seemed…And they’ve been pretty much that way since. *wonders if she can blame the heat* I think it’s making everyone cranky and whatever.

I can’t seem to concentrate to think…of course my head does hurt, and Mum told me to take something, and I really meant to…I just haven’t managed to follow through. I’d rather just have a cup of mint tea, which I know would help some at least…but it’s too bloody hot.

I’ve been feeling…quite lonely lately. *sigh* Wishing to have someone to hold me, to tell me they love me…or at least that they want me. The depths of the thoughts of my mind of the lengths it’s willing to accept…should be scary to even myself…but I know I’m not alone. Strange comfort…but a comfort none-the-less (At least I don’t have to question my sanity completely).

Still missing my B key…but I’m getting use to it not being there. Can’t think of a way to get it back on to stay, and it still works…so it’s all good…I suppose.

Pet went to bed without being tucked in…I never know when he’s going to whine for it or not. I don’t think I slept one night in the bedroom last week.

I keep finding myself going back to look at the pages for the Manitou (the Tall Ship out of Traverse City). I know it’s nothing but a dream, and as things stand now, that’s all it will ever be. *sigh* I’m finding myself not being content though…I hate it for the fact that I don’t feel as if there is anything I can do about it.

Sewed some more today. I haven’t messed with the corset top that I started on before, as I need black thread in the machine for that, and I’ve been using white currently (and knew I needed it for some stuff, and didn’t want to have to switch back and forth). But, as I got my white shirt done today (aside from the lacing for the front…and I’m going to have to do something about the sleeves…as the cuffs are way too big for me). Tomarrow I’ll trade thread over, and sew Harley’s pants (which I’m worried are going to be too big too), and the pants I have cut out for me. Mum found a pattern laying out in the kitchen, and I realized I can use the blue camo I have for make her a dress from the pattern.

Well, as it is the 31st of July…It is 2 days to Mutt Lust. Though not looking forward to the events of the first…as it is a bit on the heartbreaking side…I wouldn’t mind to be in Raven’s place on the 2nd…well…perhaps minus the Fire Whiskey. *laughs*

*sighs* I’d be happy with any of the three of Raven’s men at this point. I have a point to make here…I really do…but I’m just too tired to make it. *falls over* I think I’ll have to be heading to sleep soon…I can’t focus…I’ve had a lot of trouble with that lately…And although I’ve got Raven’s entry written for tomarrow…I still need Severus’s and Peter’s…and I think they are much needed.

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