Too much going on…I need a break…

I’m feeling melancholy…Been that was for the last half of the day…And it seems to only want to get worse.

First part of the day…Was up before my time, but not so bad. I can’t remember what I did the first bit. *shrugs* I’m pretty sure I was still asleep. *laughs*
Anyway…FINALLY made Sonja’s hot chocolate…Will be taking it to the school tomorrow for her class. Skipped out on the movie thing though…I just couldn’t focus enough for all that…Besides, with as hectic as it got…We ended up going through 3 kettles. The first one was too small…the second one was too small…the third one was too big, but it worked. Took forever for the chocolate to melt. It was okay stuff…But I prefer milk chocolate, and the recipe called for semi-sweet chocolate…Too bitter for my taste…Other than that, it was good. Sonja was amazed at how the whipping cream whipped up…But she thought we should of added sugar, as she’s use to the store bought stuff.

Didn’t get to the gingerbread house(s) this week-end. Maybe that’s what we’ll do Friday. [Thursday is the last day of school…And it’s only half a day!]

Went to TC again. *falls over* Had to go there to get what the Pet is getting Katie for Christmas. I still need to find one & half things for my Mum.

I’m almost finished with Katie’s doll. I’m not sure what design to put on her box…Right now it’s just white.

Finished Sonja’s classes ornaments. I need to get a new paint pen to do Harley’s classes…I’ve decided it’ll be easier than how I usually do it (which is writing the kids names on them with a toothpick and paint). I’ve got to send another note to Harley’s teacher in hopes of getting the last three kid’s favorite colors.

Sonja’s kimono is almost done already! I only need to put on the edging along the front panels, which go up and become the collar as well. My Mum’s and my material worked out to almost the exact amount needed. o.O No room for messing up there. Sonja’s has enough to make her a little purse (which I just remembered, I forgot to pink up some decorative things for it). I haven’t cut Harley’s material out yet, but I did get him measured after I got home…As he was here by then. Actually I guess they showed up shortly after I left.

Got Raya’s box packed up…Sonja picked out something at the dollar store the other day for her…I asked Harley if he wanted to put his name on something that I already had…The one thing I thought would be good he said no too…And picked out a different box inside the box and said it had to be THAT one. *laughs* Oh well…It’s all good. *smiles*

Most of the ride to TC I was thinking of how to the Pet to go away…It’s hard to come up with ‘the perfect time’ for such things. *sigh*
Then I’m trying to enjoy my peaceful shopping time…And I get a text message…I thought it might of been someone else, but it was Mum, telling me that the Pet wanted me to pick up Taco Bell for him. *rolls eyes* 60+ miles away and he still manages to irate me to no end. So the $8.00 that was suppose to be MY dinner, ended up being HIS dinner…I got an order of nachos, to tide me over…I thought I’d get apple pies at McDonald’s…But the stupid place closed at 7 for their Christmas party. *sigh* So I came home, had an orange, a handful of potatoes chips, and some noodles.

Talked to Grim tonight…Not even 10 min. I’d be surprised if it was even 5. Haven’t talked to him much at all this last week. I gave up texting good-nights…I didn’t want to be a bother. He’s going to be back in San Diego for the next two weeks…Starting tomorrow. So I won’t be hearing much from him at all…Most likely not at all. Guess it’s back to how communication was once before…I’ll hear from him whenever he gets the chance…i.e…is bored. Guess that’s just the way of life. I knew it would be like that eventually…I just thought…I don’t know. *shakes head*

I NEED sometime for just me. I can’t keep my thoughts straight, I’m pulled so thin. I hate it…I can’t function. Yes, I can function with a deadline, and I’ll work to get things done, even harder, when those last minutes are ticking…But this…I don’t know what this is…Just too much stuff…Too much in a row. I don’t have enough time to properly settle down, and recollect myself. I need that. Maybe Tuesday…I don’t think there is anything planned…Though I do have things that still need to get done. *headdesk*

Monday: Have to take Sonja’s hot chocolate into the school. Then go grocery shopping at Glen’s, since I’ll already be out and about…and there is that $70 gift card for there…Yay for food. PLUS…I have to sneak in some more shopping. I still need to get a couple more things for my Mum.
Tuesday & Wednesday: I haven’t a clue…I’m sure something will pop up. [Though I have to finish Harley’s classes ornaments. I want to get the kimonos done before Christmas. Finish the shopping. Seems like their is something else.]
Thursday: Harley & Sonja’s Christmas parties…Harley’s teacher is giving the kids a pizza party for lunch. Then taking Harley to do his shopping for; Grandma Kathy, Aunt Katie, Aunt Sandy & Isabelle.
Friday: Critters are out of school for vacation. Might do the gingerbread house(s).

I need to get some kind of plot set out for Raven…I need to know what the heck she’s doing. I have vague ideas/thoughts…But with the inability to focus that I’m currently going through…I can’t even get that worked out.

*sigh* Well…The last camouflage pillow has lost it’s place. Harley took it to bed, and the Pet took it over. I had been using it to snuggle up to at night…Wrapping my arms around it so I could feel like I was holding onto someone…I miss holding onto someone…Not enough to return to the bedroom though.

My eyes are leaky today/tonight…I think all this running and no down time is setting me on emotional edge. Feeling a whole lot of empty…Even though I shouldn’t be. I just can’t seem to help it.

*gives up* I’m just too far out of it to keep the coherent thoughts coming…I know my mind is wandering all over and back. *lays down and goes to sleep*