Todayness

*stares @ paper to be* Doooooooo something… *prods @ it* Write yourself! Come on, you can do it! *blinks* *sigh*

I know I need to get this thing written. I’m suppose to have a rough draft in two weeks…I just can’t seem to get my brain to do whatever it needs to do to get done.
I’ve read article after article, taken notes all over them…I’ve read a few books, have notes written in them. I wrote an introductory page (about a page hand-written).
I just…I don’t know…Motivation lacking? I’m just not feeling it currently, or something.

Two days to Halloween and I’m feeling uncertain about my Halloween costume. I’ll probably just end up going with it anyway, as I really have nothing else to do, and no time to do it in.

I need to come up with a lesson plan for MAT 300.
It can be from any of the Core Contents…But it has to include an Art (not a "Craft"), that I can bring in the supplies so the class can actually do the art.
Not going to class this week, as it’s Halloween…There are 3 of us (out of 7) not going…So the lesson plan isn’t due till next week.

I don’t know…Feeling kind of…Restless?
There is this want/need/something to do something…Tho I haven’t any idea as to what…

Brain is feeling so scattered, which I suppose is why I can’t focus on my paper either…Brain is all wonky. *pokes @ brain*

Yesterday marked 300 days of art 365 Days of Art. It doesn’t seem like it can be 300 days already.
Counting today, 65 more days to go.

I’ve been wondering about doing something in the upcoming year, and what.
I want to keep doing something, but I don’t feel like doing the same thing again.
I was wondering about maybe doing just something on a weekly basis…52 weeks of something.

Results from the expensive-way to early in the morning-test should be on on November 1st…So I’ll know whether I passed that, and whether that means I’ll be able to be placed into a school for Teaching Assisting next semester.
I still think it’s unfair that English majors are held to a higher standard than the rest of the disciplines. Everyone else is fine with a 2.7 in their major, but English has to have a 3.0 in their major. My GPA is over 3.0 all together & it’s still higher than the 2.7 that every other major requires. Plus, I don’t think any other discipline has a class that requires a ‘Senior Project’ such as this 25 page paper of evil.
But, I suppose, this does mean I’ve gotten these tests out of the way, as I would have still had to take them, they just could have waited until Spring or Summer.
If I didn’t pass them…*shakes head* I don’t know what I’ll do. I’d need an A in ENG 495, and I honestly don’t see that happening.

I’ve got to make a special trip to TC, probably tomorrow, to get my last graded assignment from 495, as class was cancelled 3 weeks ago, and we haven’t had class for last week or this one, as Kurt is in Ireland, pretending to work. I tried to pick it up twice, and the Grand Valley office has been closed both times! It’s aggravating & annoying. But as I’m suppose to have my Final of part of what was in that bunch for class next week, I need to see what he said about what I’ve already done. *sigh* It’s a pain.

& then there is NaNoWriMo, which I so want to do, but can’t help but think it’s a lost cause, as I need to get too much else done.
Next year, if all goes right, I’ll be Student Teaching…So yeah, pretty sure I won’t be doing it next year either. *pouts* 

*wanders around in circles*