*sigh*

Just got a text from Wasil…There doesn’t appear to be anything resembling work in Grand Rapids. Which means…It’s back to St. Louis for him, and hopefully he really can get a job at Macy’s as easily as he was figuring. Unfortunately…That means all hopes of having him closer have been dashed…Back to 628 miles separating us…& no bloody idea of what kind of visiting schedule he’ll be able to have. *sigh* 

I hate this…I hate being away from him…Hate having so much distance between us.
I should of known better…To get my hopes up…But I had…Thinking maybe I’d get to see more of him…That I could spend more time with him…

My heart aches…I want to cry…
 

On unrelated notes…

School…
MATH: My online homework for math was late…Mostly because it’s so hard to keep track of what is due when. The syllabus isn’t clear, she isn’t clear…Everyday I overhear the people in class asking what is due, what is she just looking at…& today she announces that she is totally shifting some of the schedule around too. *sigh* 
I have a test in math Friday…I’m hoping I do okay…I think I have a grasp of the concepts…

FRENCH: I got a 72% on my test last week. I’m fine with that. I’ve got to start working on my presentation…Gathering information…Joan of Arc seemed fitting. *shrugs* 

ENGLISH: I have a paper due two weeks from Monday. We are suppose to take one idea from Poe’s thoughts towards poetry, and focus on that idea, in our own words, demonstrate how it functions or not in Poe’s own work, and analyze why I find value or not in the concept. Amongst the things to choose from: Effect, Unity, Beauty, Fancy, The Imagination, etc. It needs to be 4 pages.
I haven’t done any of the reading for class yet…& I don’t think I’ll be getting to it before bed tonight…Which means I’ll only have Thursday-Sunday to do the reading, along with everything else.

Something there that isn’t there…
Last night when I was trying to get to sleep…There was not only the feeling, but the sound, of an animal scratching, under by bed…The bed shook subtly and everything. I wondered if perhaps one of the kittens hadn’t snuck in the room…I kicked at the bed, it didn’t stop it. It didn’t continue too much longer…As I lay there, I felt something at my feet, walking across the blankets, pushing them down around my feet, as if a cat or dog was curling up. I sat up and reached out, thinking maybe my dismissing of the kittens sneaking in was too easily dismissed…But no…The space was vacant of anything that I could feel, could see…Yet I KNOW something had been there…

Halloween costumes:
Harley’s is the last one…I’ve got it mostly done…Well maybe half. I have the pants & shirt resembling pants & shirt…I need to do some more work on it…I have to do it soon…I want to make sure there is plenty of time…Halloween is sneaking up quickly.

I think…It’s time to go to sleep…French tomorrow…No time for anything between dropping the Critters off & going to school…