Quick Update…Okay, not so quick afterall…

1) I have pictures uploaded to the computer & uploaded to photobucket…So hopefully I’ll manage to get them posted of the soons.

2.) Mediation sucked. *sigh* It was one of those reach a compramise temporarily to make it look like I was at least trying, but I hate it…The Critters hate it…I wish the Idiot would just fall off the face of the planet. Instead of every other week-end like it’s been, Fri-Sun…The week-end will be starting on Wed. *frowns* So every other Wed. the Critters have to go to Idiot’s, and stay until Sunday. *sigh* He wants the full week, every other week…I don’t want them to have to go at all if they don’t want to, which they don’t. This is a trial thing, for Feb. & March…Then we have to go to mediation again. *rolls eyes* It postpones court crap for two months.

3.) I’m currently trying to download a movie…Wasil set up the program that is doing the downloading…The movie is ‘9’.  I’m not allowed to watch it when it’s downloaded, until he’s ready to watch it too. He said ‘We’ll watch it together’. *smiles* We did that the other night with a show. 600 miles away and we can watch ‘TV’ together.

4.) *sigh* I’m not feeling better…Despite what he said…Okay, explanation for that one…
                 The other night Wasil was remoted to the computer, again ( I swear it’s a favorite hobby of his…Guess that’s what you get for talking to Computer Geeks.) He’d spotted a file on the desktop that was an attempted letter to him, but got disconnected before he could take a look at it, but said something about it. I told him it wasn’t finished & I was babbling. Well…I decided to just send him the two parts of letters I had anyway.
                 After he read it/them, he popped up on messenger with (and I’m going to try and condense the convo)…

Wasil: so i was correct

Raven: What?

Wasil: i had asked @ one point if you were falling for me. i was correct

Raven: what did I say that would make you draw that conclusion?

Wasil: lol.  so yr going to deny it?

Raven: What if I plead insanity?

Wasil: pfft.  even saying that conferms it

Raven: Does it? How can it when i don’t even know what I’m doing?

Wasil: yr typing

Raven: Funny

Wasil: and pleading insanity would be ok as anyone interested in me would have to be

Raven: *shakes head* That is not true.

Wasil: sure it is.  you are falling for me and are attempting to plead insanity.  confirmed.  just admit it and you will feel better

Raven: I’d plead insanity anyway…I gave up sanity a long time ago.  How so?

Wasil: do it and u will c

Raven: It usually just ends badly.

Wasil: uve already admitted it just havent said it

Raven: *looks at ground* Okay…Maybe…

Wasil: mabey what

Raven: Must you always be so difficult?

Wasil: actually im not

Raven: Fine.  Maybe I am falling for you.

Wasil: mabey huh.  ya ok

Raven: Not going to be happy with maybe?

Wasil: mabey is meaningless.  it dosnt mean yes and it dosnt mean no.  it mean nothing

Raven: It means a lot when you’re scared.

Wasil: vampires dont exsist

Raven: What does that have to do with anything?

Wasil: dont be scared of them

Raven: Never said I was scared of them.

Wasil: u said u were scared

Raven: Didn’t say of vampires.

Wasil: wearwolves?

Raven: I don’t think I’m overly scared of them either.

Wasil: ghosts?

Raven: Not the last time I checked.

Wasil: then what

Raven: Pain

Wasil: well then i wont choke you

Raven: Not afraid of that.

Wasil: isnt that pain

Raven: Only if you squeaze too tight

Wasil: u think i may hit you or something

Raven: No

Wasil: then what pain

Raven: Non physical pain.

Wasil: ohh.  well look at it this way.  if i told you right now i dont ever wanna talk to you again.  would it pain you

Raven: Yes.

Wasil: ok then.   were already past the point that anything negative will cause you pain

Raven: Is that so…

Wasil: u dont agree?

Raven: I don’t know…I suppose since you are still talking to me right now…

Wasil: thats part of the point.   if i were to day that to you right now and delete everything about you it would cause you pain.  so aditting w/e isnt going to change the fact that if that were to ever happen you would be in pain

Raven: Fine…

Wasil: agreed?

Raven: I’m falling for you.

Wasil: there ya go.  but i think it more than that.  i think u already fell

Raven: Do you really?

Wasil: uhhu

Raven: And does this go to your line of thought that you don’t seem to ever be wrong?

Wasil: nope.  anyone that read what u finnaly gave me would come to the same conclusion

Raven: How so?

Wasil: huh? u know what u wrote

Raven: I do…But didn’t think it said that.

Wasil: oh i do.   now don’t u feel better?

Raven: I don’t know

Wasil: im sure you do.  just think about it a bit.  im sorry but i have to go do a few things.  ill be lack l8ters though

Raven: Okays…

Wasil: muwah. 

Raven: *kisses* 

….Okay, didn’t condense real well…Still…*sigh* 
I’m not feeling better though…I’m…Stressy. I had ‘Are you happy you were right’ in my status message on messenger for a while last night…But he didn’t comment on it…
I don’t know…I want to cut out my heart and throw it in a dumpster so it will not cause me anymore trouble. It’s a worthless muscle, serving no useful purpose…*curls up in a corner* *le sigh*

ANYWAY…I have to get ready to go to school…Oceanography lab today…