Out of the loop…

*sigh*
And I am reminded once more how badly I want to write…And how I don’t seem to have the ability to do so.
I want to, and the thoughts and possibilities flit by, but then keep on going.
I miss what once was, and I know that it’ll never be that way again…It’s like a hole in my heart, and it aches.
It’s not just the writing…Which I miss…It’s the connection of writing with others…Which even if I could manage to get something written…That would still be missing.
Maybe that’s what is keeping me from actually writing…I know that that connection isn’t going to be there…That it’s going to be missing…*sigh*

I do have  200+ words…But have ran into a brick wall. Joy.
*pokes @ character* What the bloody hell is your name anyway?
That’s not the only road block…Minor details, like needing to get said nameless character where she needs to be.

And honestly…Gods, I don’t know…

I’m feeling outside of a world I use to be in…
It’s not the first time…But I don’t want it to end up like last time…Everyone from that time is…essentially gone.
 

 

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I have goggles similar to the ones in your profile pic. Aren’t they kick-ass? I think so, therefore it is so.

*hugs*

You don’t have to be out of the loop. The canon characters you want to be there can still be there. I know what I said over the phone, but I just didn’t think they would make sense to *my* story, since Raya’s going to be a tad different. If their inclusion will help you to write and join us, then by all means. The reason I left last time was b/c I was SO bored with the same plot…

with my orgional work I at a standstill/brick wall ect with that. and *huge tight hug*

Like we discussed months ago, you & I couldn’t keep doing the same story over and over. Hence, why I changed her ever so slightly. P.S. NO more Cole. Woohoo!!! That all by itself opens doors for new ideas. Whether or not she is going to be a DE is still up in there. Even if she does become one, I don’t foresee it being the ideal world she thought it would be.

The only reason I didn’t insist on you joining us is because, like I told Tara when she asked me if Raya was going to be an only child this time, I didn’t want to talk you two into joining and then leave you all high & dry if I ever decided to quit again. That isn’t fair to you or Tara. I would certainly enjoy writing with you, again, but I am not going to pressure you like last time.

That would be very selfish of me to do. *kicks note limits* Blah.

May 14, 2011

I miss your writing. I guess I miss writing myself too. Even if I wasn’t really writing with anyone, I still felt more inspired when everything was going on.

May 14, 2011

*hugs you lots* i dreamt of winning the lottery and sending random checks off to my friends whom i knew needed it. it really made me smile.