One more day passes by
I’m having a really up and down day. *sigh*
Woke up feeling so-so…
Took a bath…Got out feeling wonderful! I looked in the mirror and actually liked loved what I seen. I was really, amazingly so, happy with what I seen. I felt beautiful…I saw beauty. That should of made the whole day good…Right? *sigh* No…
Something happened that sent disappointment through me. Which would of been fine…No big deal…I just needed time to process it. Try and sort it out…Which, yeah…Not happening quickly…Still…It really doesn’t matter in the long run.
Then had to go to the Pet’s family Halloween gathering…I figured the ride would do me some good…Well I ended up having to be the one to drive (when I really didn’t feel like it), so that did wonders for my mood. (Oh, and that first long text message…I was driving when I wrote it.) Anyway…Got the the ‘party’ location, and the Pet, in his infinate stupidity, couldn’t manage to figure out how to get out of the back of the Jeep properly, and got his foot stuck. *rolls eyes* He expected me to undo it some how. I couldn’t even get to his foot without risk of getting myself hurt…Which I wasn’t going to bloody well do. So he gets all pissed…Which somehow he manages to get his foot out…But yells at me because I didn’t know WTF he expected me to do. *rolls eyes* So the whole time there I didn’t say a single word to him. One would think he’d have the sense to at least say sorry…But nope…He’s acting like nothing happened at all now. I overheard him and his mother talking, and even she said it was wrong of him to yell at me…I couldn’t tell if he said he knew that or not…Still, either way…He didn’t do a thing about it.
Mum told me the other day it costs $150.00 to get divorce papers drawn up. I’d been wondering…Guess I know where $150 of the tax refund money will be going. I hate living like this…I can’t keep living like this…It’s not living. I’m not even much feeling like I’m exsisting at this point…I feel…*sigh* *shakes head* I don’t know.
I want…I need…I deserve…Someone who’s going to treat me right…Who’s going to treat me good…Who is going to manage to know I exsist!
It’s been a month an a half since I got my braces off…As far as I know, the Pet has yet to realize, if he has, he hasn’t said anything. It’s been longer since I got my last tattoo…And he still doesn’t even have a clue as it it’s exsistence either.
I want/need/deserve someone who is going to notice these things when they happen…Not months later, if ever.
But right now…I’d be happy with just someone to hold me on occasion and just pretend.
Actually…Like I’ve mentioned before…I think I’m pretty much done with love…It serves no useful purpose…Only causes pain. I just…want someone I can pretend with for a brief period of time, and then move on, back to the more mundane things of life…*sigh*
Eh…I give up on this entry.
you’re right…you deserve better
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Wow what a jerk!! I mean come on how do you not realize your wife got her braces off, or got a new tattoo, I meant sh*t if you were my wife, I’d be lookin at you so often I would notice if one hair fell out or somethin lol…dump that dude, you don’t need all that, I know you know that already though. I’ve been having quite the sh*tty day myself…no one will listen, so I just wont talk! lol
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*hugs you*
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*hugs* Men stink. And yes, you deserve better, and always remember that.
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Well atleast you finally saw that you are beautiful today!! How long have I been tellin you that?? Come on now I know you’re not that slow, you should have caught on a while ago! lol Hope you’re havin a better night!
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He’s an ass! I’m sorry u have to deal with him. .. u so deserve better.. keep thinking about..! .!
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ok yea.. guess i didn’t finish that thought.. *laughs* what i was saying… keep thinking that… it’ll be better to just rid urself of him.
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I believe you deserve much, much more than you get. You’re awesome and special.
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you are right, you deserve better! And although you dont have enough money the time will come! *hugs* Silly boy getting stuck in the Jeep, you shouldve just left him! xoxo
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*kicks pet repeatedly and roughly* he s a big bum! HUGE *kicks more* you deserve so much better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just take a deep breath and save up because you just need to, then maybe he might notice you xxx
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*kicks pet with nic* I seriously think you are right. You don’t need someone like him dragging you down. I wish he’d so though, what a wonderful woman he’s about to loose. *scowls at pet* Open your eyes moron!!! *hugs to you* Take care! RYN// I know either of you would’ve dragged me into it. Lol, probably luring me with some rum or cookies. LOL. Note from
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The pet is a worthless moron. Did he lose his job? I forgot to ask that when I called you earlier… Yay for feeling beautiful! *hugs* You really are pretty, as I’ve been trying to tell you! You should put back the smiling piccie as your diary icon. — I’ve felt pretty on occasion, but I’ve yet to look at myself and think I’m “beautiful.” *kicks the source of yesterday’s disappointment* *grins*
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You *do* deserve better and you can *get* better. Don’t let anything hold you down or hold you back.
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ooc: Yay for having self-esteem! I have nothing else…the literary theory this eve in class sucked what little brains I had out. *wanders away aimlessly*
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ryn: Well, we read a common diary: Pink-cess She had an entry: for all you pinkcess wannabes. Or some shite. Well, that Almost a Sarah chick left me THAT note on MY OD. Because I frequented Pink-cess’ diary. She must’ve clicked the link or something. Anyways…leaving that note and shite…I said fook ’em both. No need for more drama. they can bite mine for all I care. But, thanksfor stopping by and bandaging muh boo-boo. LOL I like *huggles* though. I’m an affection whore. LOL
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