*looks at entry* Okay, it went totally off track.

I’m feeling…kind of melancholoy right now…Haven’t been too bad for most of the day…Though I did kind of have a bit of a bad spell after re-reading Raven’s entry last night, and when I was getting offline.

Most of the day…I’m been…me. Though it didn’t go at all like it was suppose to.  Was suppose to go the Jo-Ann Fabrics and see if they had some material for Mum’s shirt for her costume…but got as far as Boyne, and her car decided to develope a thump…most likely ball-joint. So we cut short the outting.  So until my Jeep gets done, we are down to her Jeep between me and her.

We’ll manage…we always do…though sometimes I wonder how. But I know it’s up to me and her to make it through…

Harley has over $1,600 worth of work the dentist wants to do on him, including a root canal. There is still nearly $800 that the insurance won’t cover.  But we’ll do it bit by bit, and get it taken care of.

I’m working on a shirt for mum’s costume, in case we can’t find the other material, made from the same stuff I made her skirt out of (it might work better out of that stuff anyway), It’s all cut out and pinned…ready to be sewed.  Alsto have another shirt I’m working on for her that’s cut out and pinned…though I need to get some ribbon for a tie at the back.

We were watching the Dukes of Hazzard Reunion movie tonight…and at one point the one lady asked Daisy how her bridesmaids were going to have their dresses ready in time for the wedding. Daisy told her something along the lines of,  ‘A Hazzard girl could pick out the material, get the pattern, do her nails and hair, and have the dress ready before the fella was there to pick her up.’  My mum who was sitting next to me, just turned and looked at me. *laughs*  Yeah…it’s something I could do,  Wish I had the reason to do it. *sigh*

Yeah…I know…I’ve got the worthless pet…point is, he’s worthless, and I’m avoiding any type of anything as much as I can with him. Truth of the matter is…it’s gotten to the point that I can’t even remeber 1) when the last time I got even a tiny peck of a kiss…or 2) That either of us said ‘I love you’.    I’d pretty much say things are falling apart…yet, I seem to be the only one of the two of us that even seems to notice in the least…I wish he’d just declare he was leaving.

I know there are people out there who just want someone to love them. And here I’ve got this person that’s suppose to do that…and I just wish it would go away. *sigh* Makes me feel bad…but I can’t help it.

Anyway…back to today…

Happy 14th Birthday Dominic Michael

He got three roses today…as they were on sale. I got him a red one that was open, and a white one, and a yellow one that were still buds.  I made his cake…Devil’s Food, with chocolate icing. I wrote his name in green and red…his 14 in blue, and drew a really pathetic looking car on his cake in yellow.   I have no idea what a 14 year old likes…Which I should…considering some of my friends aren’t much older than that…

Anyway…Mum said something the other day, about one of the people she was working with said she should take me to the shops Lexi Gras party…(It’s Leximar’s Mardi Gras party…the thing I’m making her costume for…but since it’s in April instead of Feb. they changed it from Mardi Gras to Lexi Gras…Anyway…) *sigh* I’m wishing she would of never told me that someone even suggested it.  Why…because I want to do something, go somewhere, so badly…and part of me thinks maybe that that could be a something…but I know she’d never take me…It’s her time to go out and have fun.  She’s lucky she gets the chance…

*sigh* I miss high school for one reason, and one reason only…the dances. It gave me some place to go, and something to do…But I don’t even have those friends anymore.
I’ve got some really great friends now…only trouble is, they all live so far away…So it’s not like we can just go out and do something. 
Suppose it doesn’t help that I don’t have any friends here…and I really don’t have any way to find any. Stupid pet says his friends have thier significant others or what not…But I already know that we wouldn’t have anything in common…I have nothing in common with the pet anymore, or his friends…I don’t see where I would have anything in common with the people connected to his friends.  But of course…he doesn’t see this…since he doesn’t  seem to realize there is nothing we have in common anymore.

Well this is getting incrediably depressing…So I think I’m just going to wrap it up.  At this point, I’d happily take any of Raven’s men off her hands though…I need a good bit of stress relief. *sigh*