Letting it out…

My back hurts, my stomach is filling me with pain, and add to that mid-semester alerts are out and I’m failing not one, but two classes. *sigh* I really hate today.
I’m so tired, all I want to do is curl up in a hole and sleep…

Harley had to go to school with me today, and he has to stay home tomorrow, as he was suspended…Apparently he told the one substitute teacher he was going to back hand him. *sigh* Mrs. Puroll (Harley’s regular teacher) is annoyed by the whole thing. She doesn’t see where giving Harley days off from school is a help, as it’s almost a reward rather than a punishment…Even if he does have his work to do, and isn’t allowed on the computer or the Wii…He still doesn’t have to be at school.
She’s also annoyed because apparently the school has a major double standard. She said that this has happened with other students too…That they threaten a female teacher, and nothing is done about it. They threaten a male teacher, and they are quick to jump to action.

I should be going through the articles I printed off last night for my Mythology research paper, considering that is one of the classes I’m failing…But I can’t even think straight with how tired I’m feeling.

The other class I’m failing…French, of course. I can’t understand a bloody thing he’s saying anymore. I can’t think, I can’t concentrate…

& after last night’s mid-term, I’m probably failing American Lit. too.

So…Are there any half way decent jobs out there for someone who has an Associates in Science and Art? *sigh*

I’ve got orientation and registration for classes at Grand Valley in two weeks…If I’m failing these classes, what’s the point? Seriously. I need them to transfer. I so want to crawl into a ball and cry.

And all this whining for myself makes me feel shallow, especially when I know bloody well there are others that have it a lot worse and have real problems to deal with.

The Critter’s adopted Uncle Travis’s family is going through a crap load of stuff currently. Travis’s Uncle Bill died last night…Then on top of that his…I’m not sure if it’s his grandmother or what, they always just call her Fay…Anyway, apparently she had a heart attack last night, and had to go in for some kind of surgery today. Add to this the fact that Travis’s should have had his gallbladder out ages ago, but can’t afford to get the surgery.

The Critter’s grandfather on the Idiot’s side had hip surgery last week…He wasn’t healing up right. They took him back into surgery the other day, found a couple blood clots. Got them taken care of, and put something in to help with…I don’t know, something medical. He was suppose to get that removed today, but when they went to do it they found an infection, and he’s still not healing right. [And as far as I know, the Idiot knows none of this.]

Homework front: [Which yeah…I’m trying to tell myself to drop the ‘Why bother’ attitude that wants to take over.]

American Lit: I’m sure there is something I have to have read by next Wednesday. As it is only Thursday night, not a high priority.

Linguistics: Our 2nd assessment/test was suppose to be next Tuesday, but we didn’t get to the study guide today. So…We’ll be going over the study guide Tuesday instead, and the assessment will be next Thursday. So no homework.
Tho, I really do need to get my first paper rewrote & my research proposal touched up…& think about writing the proposal update as well…Need to check and see how many sources I need for this, as I’ve forgetten.

French: *sigh* I don’t even know if he said do the work book pages that go with what we went over in class. He did say…Here is a list of verbs, know them…You could see this on a test. Took a quiz today…Fairly certain that was a fail. Got my last exam back…71% Passing…But apparently not enough to make my grade passing. Plus I need to figure out what I’m going to be doing with my French speaking city presentation. I have the city…I had a concept…But I need information that will actually work. Granted, I haven’t searched in-depthly, but I’ve had to look for information for other classes.

Mythology: I’m hoping like hell that the things I printed out last night will have information I can actually use. Research proposal is due Monday. I need an annotated bibliography for 2 sources…I don’t even know what one of those is! I can’t remember how many sources I’m suppose to have for this one either…With as much trouble as I’m having finding any…

And it’s not like I haven’t tried…I’ve been going on the college library website and searching through the data bases…But how the bloody hell are you suppose to be able to find something when you really don’t know what you are looking for.

Seriously…I want to just bawl my eyes out, throw in the towel, give the hell up, and…I don’t bloody well know. I feel like I’m letting everyone down…Myself, the Critters (how can I tell them to do good in school when apparently I can’t even do it anymore), Mum (even tho she was still trying to be encouraging when I text her with the news), Wasil (as he’s real big on school and learning), Mary B., Mr. Burton…The list just goes on and on and on…*sigh*

& last night…After the mid-term of suckness…Went outside to find that I was locked out of Appa. Had to call my Mum to bring the spare key…And during the initial phone call she seemed to think it was a chore and she was being put out of her way to do it. WTF? Seriously…She calls and needs anything, no matter what I’m doing, including homework, no matter my plans…I do it right then and there. Heck, she called me just last Saturday asking if I could bring her the checkbook, because she was going to get new tires for her car, and right then the place didn’t have anyone, so she wanted to hurry over there. I was trying to get homework done, had plans to leave later, I didn’t even think about asking her if she could wait. I said, ‘okay, let me finish this one question and I’ll get the checkbook and be right there’. Despite the fact that this interrupted my homework…Threw off the schedule I had…As I wanted to do homework till noon, then go do the shopping, then come back to do more homework. So I would have that break…

Then again, apparently doing homework isn’t getting me anywhere anyway…Tho…I’m not failing Linguistics, yet. & at least before the mid-term I wasn’t failing American Lit.

Tomorrow…Homework is the plan…Even if I’m having a hard time seeing why…

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