Last day…

*sigh* 
Today is my fully day in St. Louis. & I leave way too early tomorrow morning…My flight is suppose to take off at 10:23 am or something like that. *sigh* 

I don’t want to leave…Yet I miss being at home too…I miss Mum & my Critters…I know I’m going to miss Wasil before I even leave the terminal.

If he had his way…I wouldn’t be leaving…I’d never be leaving…Or if I did, it would be to retrieve my things.
He doesn’t ask me to move in…He asks me why I won’t.

I love him..I wish we could spend more time together…But I just can’t move here.
I hate big cities…& despite him telling me Lakeshire probably doesn’t have anymore people than Mancelona…It’s still way too many.
I hate living IN a city…I hate not having a yard & nature, and freedom to roam.
I don’t want to live somewhere that I would feel the need to stay cooped up inside all the time…I’d go crazy.
& there is no way I could make the Critters grow up in some place like this.
I mean, yeah, I’m sure it’s nice and all…If you like this kind of thing…But I don’t, and I don’t think they would either. Granted, as much as Harley goes outside on his own, he might not notice…Although he did go out a bit more this last winter. & Sonja…Gods, I would not take her away from being able to escape and go get air. She can’t breathe inside for too long. & I don’t want to have to worry about all the crazies out there (the not nice ones)…& even Melissa (she’s the female half of the couple that we went out with Monday night) says she worries about her daughters growing up around the not good kind of crazies.
[Not even going to get into the fact of the legal battle it would be to try and move the Critters out of state.]

& I don’t think he realizes, Mum is part of the deal…& she’s got a good job & can’t be moving away from it.

*sigh* I wish Michigan’s economy would get better.
I wish Wasil’s company would send him back to Michigan. [Even part time there he was making a good living.]
Even if there is no way he’d end up living up North…That’s just not where the work would be…But just to have him closer…So I could visit him more & he could visit me more…

He’s at work right now…It’s only the 3rd day he’s had to work this week…& he probably won’t be gone much longer.

Goth Night wasn’t a great as it was suppose to be…
It wasn’t as clubby or gothy as it was suppose to be…It was more like hanging out in a bar…& Wasil doesn’t care for "Loopy" (Yeah…I had a bit more than I should of).

Well…I guess that’s about it for the moment…
Not looking forward to getting back to homework…I have two papers, a presentation, a reading response, forum responses, 2 more essays…