I want to write something…

But I don’t know what…

Should probably work on roleplay entires…except my mind seems to be stuck on one track…well maybe a couple tracks. I’ve got a couple sheets of paper with dialog notes on it.  I’ve got an entry partially (possibly mostly) written, but I’m having troubles with it now…but it’s not until faaaaaaaaaaaaaar into the future…as it is the return of Severus after his bit of missingness. I’m just having a bit of trouble with how he’d deal with what he comes back to. And since it’s right there to deal with first thing in what I have writen…

I do have the desire to work on a fanfic…but I’m lacking one major thing…a plot…well sort of. I’ve got a half-thought of a plot…but not sure how to execute it. (Yeah, I know, I should finish A Blissful Fortnight first.)  <—-Maybe I will work on that.  *laughs*
Anywho…Yes, it’s another HP fanfic…and not sure if it’ll be a surprise or not, but it’s also Marauder Era (possibly post Hogwarts Marauders though…not real sure about that part either).  The thought’s been there for a bit, and it was stirred a bit more by last nights entries for Raven and Peter…as they both made mention of the time Raven and Raya spent in the past. (Gods, I loved that bit of time…as I know my sister does as well.)

About the time in the past:
It was Raya’s idea to go back there…and I happily went 1) To have something to do, and 2) Because it was a good oppertunity to get to Severus at a young age. *laughs* *holds Severus tightly* 
I never really much thought about Marauder Era stuff before then…but after being there for a bit…It’s…something special. *grins*

The time in the past spawned ~The Choice~  My first Marauder Era fanfic, which seemed to go over quite well with those who read it. And seemed to write itself…It was fun, and it also spawned the ability to feel sorry for Peter. *laughs* Who knew how far out of control that would go.  I managed to get more than one person to feel bad for Peter! It was unintentional…but I have to say, it was still quite grande.

And I’ve seen similar reactions in roleplay…Which leads me to saying…When I first created Peter’s diary it was to run along side with Raven’s, to show a bit of what he was thinking, because by that time, I’d come to the conclusion he didn’t really mean to be hurting her in what was going on. At first (like the first couple shots) it was a power thing…but as Raven treated him as a person, he lost the whole power thing. As for why Raven, who in the past wanted to do away with him so he didn’t end up hurting everyone he die…Well she treated him like a person because of what had happened with Naamah and the Muggle…It shook her to the core. Made her feel what it’s like to be on the other side of things…and realizing that things are not always so cut and dry.

So…Why am I babbling on about this? I suppose because I do have the need to write…

I’m also bloody well tired. I’m about falling asleep…yet here I still am…why? Good question. *shrugs*
Last night I forgot to go to bed. I finaly went to sleep around 8 or 9…then dozed off for a bit. Was up around 11 or so I think…not for sure…Which really, seeing it in writing, tells me I need to be asleep.

Blah…*throws self backwards on bed*  (minus of course the actual action and the bed…It’s a Raven move. *laughs* )

*Yawn* Well, Sonja is back to school tomarrow, after having more than her fair share off last week. At least it’s only 2nd grade…they don’t have to worry as much about missing work and what not. They better not whine about her not being there…since they are the ones that sent her home to begin with. And managed to take care of Sonja’s eye without having to take her to the doctor. Just kept putting black tea bags, dampened with warm water on it for 5-10 minutes at a time…It took a bit of time (probably would of been less if I’d pushed the issue and made her do it more often), but it cleared up quite well.

I don’t know why…but I’m not feeling very excited about Christmas. The last few years I was itching to get a tree right after Thanksgiving…but…I just don’t even feel like thinking about getting one at this point. I still need to do some shopping…and the Christmas bonus is now long gone…so it’s getting tight with trying to squeeze those things out between bills…Plus I’m still waiting for two things that were ordered, and seem to be on perpetual back order. *frowns* I guess I should go check out the places I ordered them from, and see what the deal is. One of the things is for Sonja…and the other is my present from my mum.

I suppose…I’ll be going then…I need to type of some dialog pages so they don’t get lost…