Feeling a bit disappointed tonight

Change of plans all around today it seems. *sigh*

It was raining, so it wasn’t really grilling weather…So we are postponing that till tomorrow in the hopes that it will be nicer out, at least not raining.

&…Todd isn’t coming over tonight. I called him [2 hours after he said he would call me, and hadn’t.], and he said that he had remembered that he had promised some friends of his that he would go to a party/get together thing they were having tonight…He said he’ll come over tomorrow though…Said probably sometime in the afternoon even.

Admittedly, I’m quite disappointed. He was afraid that I was mad at him, and said he didn’t want me to hate him. I told him I wasn’t mad, and that I didn’t hate him.

What I am is afraid…Afraid that my showing up there yesterday like I did, did freak him out more than he’s saying…And now he’s trying to find a way out. I know I shouldn’t jump to such conclusions…I’m just being paranoid.

Thing is…I really do like him, and I’m just afraid that things are going to…I don’t know…Dissolve, I guess.

I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.

*looks around* Not much really happening…

Mum texted me this morning to tell us all she loves us much…I texted her back to see what was up. Come to find out, one of the women she works with son died last night in his sleep. He was only 27.
She also said that Sherri told her that Scott’s ‘anniversary’ was yesterday. Scott had leukaemia…I let him borrow some of my Atari games to play while he was too sick to do much of anything…Also when I was at the Mushroom Festival in Boyne City that year, I was doing fairly good at the games. I actually managed to win a prize on that game where you roll the bowling ball, and it has to go over the hill thing, and not roll back over. I had NEVER won on it before (and never have since). I took the bear I won (a brown bear wearing a blue Hawaiian shirt and a yellow sun visor), put an ‘S’ on his visor in sequins, and gave it to Mum to give to Sherri, to give to Scott. It now sits on the one shelf with Dominic’s bear, Brian’s stocking, and several obituaries, or those things they hand out at funerals. [Sherri gave him back to me after Scott passed, so I would have something.]

When I lost Dominic, Sherri told Mum to tell me that Scott told her that he would take care of him. [Yes, Sherri talks to Scott…Or did…I don’t know if she still does or not…I’m sure she probably does.] So Dominic was never alone…He started out with Scott there to take care of him.

Think I’m going to finish this up…Eh…Here’s another survey that’s been eating up space on my desktop.

1. Have you seen a sunflower in real life before? Yesh

2. Do you buy those 98 cent boxes of cake mix or make a cake from scratch? Yesh…It’s easier to make it that way.

3. Do you own any clothes from Wal-Mart that you wear on a regular basis? Yeah.

4. Have you ever worn leg warmers? Yesh.

5. How do you feel about Pluto being called a dwarf-planet? That was a bloody rude miscalculation on Science’s part.

6. What’s your favourite flavour of Ramen? Chicken or Roast Beef…or Pork.

7. What is the brand of the eyelash curler you use? I don’t use an eyelash curler.

8. Would you rather wax or thread your eyebrows? What the heck is threading your eyebrows?

9. Do you brush your teeth before or after you eat? After…What kind of sense would it make to brush it before?

10. How do you act around your crush? *shrugs*

11. On your birthday, do you buy yourself a present? I buy myself a present whenever I can. *laughs*

12. Do you drink grape juice? Nopes…Ewwwwwww.

13. Name someone who craves for attention: All the futtin’ household.

14. What languages do you wish you can speak? Italian…*knows a few words*

15. Have you ever eaten frog before? Not that I know of.

16. Do you buy stuff from vending machines at school? If so, what? Yesh! Coffee! Candy, Chips, etc.

17. The death penalty, are you for it or against it? Some people need to be put to death.

18. Do you ride the public transportation buses? Not if I can help it.

19. Don’t you think Dr. Phil’s show is a waste of an hour? I don’t watch it.

20. Do you like Flea Market shopping? It can be much of the fun.

21. Have you ever screamed in your sleep? How would I know, I was asleep. *laughs*

22. How many hours do you spend on homework? Not nearly enough I’m sure…But it’s summer break, so who cares! *tosses confetti*

23. What would you do with no electricity? *blinkies* *hugs computer tightly* Noooooooooooo.

24. Do you wake up in the middle of the night for a snack? Not usually…Even if I’m hungry I usually just go back to sleep.

25. Ever been embarrassed buying bras? Not overly.

26. Do you participate in freebies online? No

27. How long does it take to straighten your hair? Don’t straighten my hair…It’s pretty much straight on it’s own.

28. How often do you get major headaches? What causes them? All too often…Do you think if I knew what caused them that I wouldn’t do something to prevent them?

29. Does your mom clip out coupons? Mum doesn’t shop if she can help it.

30. Do you paint your own room or do your parents do it? Someday I will paint my room…And the living room…And the bathrooms…And the dining room…blah, blah, blah.