Day Two

Dreams offer you hope…Only to have it crushed upon awakening.

I dreamed I had a text message…And I’ll leave it at that.

Raya asked about withdrawl last night…I think she was joking. She doesn’t know how close to the truth she could be. I’m okay, thus far…It’s not like there hasn’t been an expance of time before. Those three days…They were so long ago. But it’s not like that, not right now. I kept hoping and aching when that hope fell. Why is this diffrent? Because this time…I don’t have any hope.

I had thoughts that I was going to expand upon…But it was that whole while driving thinking…So said thoughts have been misplaced, and I’m not sure where they fit in now. I do, on the other hand, have a starting for tomorrows entry and thoughts to go with them. Yes, I know…plotting out irl now…Not like much excitement is going to get in the way of the thoughts I’ve got set.

Yesterday I did catch the scent of autumn on the breeze though…I was really nice. I had forgotten how good fall could smell (I still prefer summer though). But it was crisp and earthy, and wonderful. I was early to pick up the Critters, so I sat on the small wall at the school for a few moments, just taking in the atmosphere. I had the thought that it would be kind of nice to be able to sit on a campus like that. Taking in some peace between classes…But I don’t see school being feasible for me. 1) I still have no idea what I want to do with myself…though I suppose there are things that might just be nice to learn more about. 2) I don’t see us having that kind of money…exspecailly with me essetially knowing that nothing would undoubtedly come from it. It would be a lot of money to pay for nothing. Perhaps it’s because all my friends (or at least the majority of them) are off at college…or in some cases, still in regular school!

Today was walkies. *grins* It was a good walkies. I told Libby about my hellish week-end…And didn’t even begin to break at all. I think it says I’m doing good. We strayed from our course a bit, but that’s okay. Stopped at the one store, where I’ve been eyeing this bag of candy since before I got my braces off. Well today I got it. But I didn’t want to carry it around in the store bag, or it’s bag…So I got one of those cloth, springy trick-or-treat Halloween pumkins, and dumbed all the candy in it while sitting on the bench outside the store. I also purchased, and wore for the rest of the walk…as set of bright red devil horns! *laughs* Granted, I’m sure it caught some attention, people thinking I was even odder than usual…but I just didn’t care! In fact, we walked by these two kids on the sidewalk, and one said something about Halloween, and then something about Friday the 13th coming up. And I said something about Friday the 13th being good, and he said he thought so too. *laughs* It was just funny.

I’ve also come to a conclusion…It takes diffrent neck muscles to walk with your head held high than it does to walk with it down some. My neck is sore! But I did notice, I DID walk with my head held high, for almost the entirety of walking. Which may not seem much to some of you…But it’s something I don’t usually do…I NEVER walk with head held high, not like today. It felt…GREAT! *grins*

I followed Dobby’s advice today, and picked myself up some Jaffas! Then proceeded to half the package. I’ve been extra hungry the last three days. Though I’m quite proud of myself…I haven’t eaten any of the candy I bought earlier…Do plan on hitting it VERY soon though. *laughs* But I’m trying to get something a bit more solid in me first…Had four eggs for dinner…Not the greatest dinner, I know…but it was late and I’ve been quite lazy about cooking lately (about everything really).

Don’t know if this is going to come as a surprise to many, but…I am so going to see Happy Feet once it is out. *hugs the penguins* Would you believe I was VERY resistant to being a penguin at first? *laughs* *hugs Nell* Who I’ve missed so very much and was quite relieved to hear from, FINALLY, last night. ANYWAY…I thought I recognized a voice on the trailer I seen a little while ago, Robin Williams. So I went to look it up on the imdb. I was right! (I’m not really that surprised…I’ve gotten quite good at guessing voices.) What did surprise me was a couple of the other voice talents…mainly Huge Jackman! Wolverine as a Penguin! *giggles* Sorry…Lost it for a moment there. *smiles* Also…for those who might want to know…Elijah Wood, Nicole Kidman, Brittany Murphy and Hugo Weaving are all penguins too! *looks at all the exclamation marks* *shakes head at self* *laughs* I’m excited about penguins…I have issues. *laughs* *reads down list of voices further* OMGs! Steve Irwin!

Okay, this went totally off from where it was. *shrugs* Tis the way of life I suppose. *listens to the sound of rain and thunder outside*