And the babbling continues…

*sigh*
*glares at pet*  Bloody prattish git! 

We had a bit of a row today.  Want to know what about…the bloody Christmas tree!!  I made the mistake of asking him when we were going to get one…and he spazzed and blew up and said he’d asked me about it 4 times. *rolls eyes* The bloody hell he did.  He asked me once about getting one. And I said I wasn’t sure when we would at that point…this being right after Thanksgiving.  And I asked once about where to get one the other day…because the two places we usually go don’t have them this year, and he named some other place that had them.
He tried to blame my time on the computer for me not hearing him or listening to him, or whatever it is he was trying to say…This from the idiot who when he is home sits his arse in the chair and stares at the bloody t.v. and zones out.
I’m just glad he usually spends most of his time elsewhere…I’m just so bloody sick of his presense.   And of course…he goes outside to do something for a few minutes, and comes back in, and acts like everything is just fine…even says we’ll go get a tree Friday, because he doesn’t have any money. (Yet he calls later, and asks about picking up t.v. dinners. *rolls eyes*)

I have realized something though…It’s not that I’m afaid of change…But I am afraid of change that I have no control over.  I can make changes that have little effects, that I know, more or less, what will come from it. Things that won’t be of major upheaval.  It’s the changes that I can’t control…that would spin out of control…They scare the hell out of me.  Which is why I shut down this afternoon, didn’t spit out my thoughts and feelings…

*sigh* So…I remain…stuck.

And Raya has to go and remind me that Christmas is almost here…and presants need wrapped.  The only presants that are wrapped are the ones Harley got for everyone.  Sonja does her shopping Tuesday. The school has a Secret Santa Workshop…the kids take in their money, and pick things out for everyone. She really enjoys it, and has been looking forward to it for a while now. 

I still have to finish up the pets sisters and mothers baskets…But I need to get piccies taken of the kids before I can. Sonja is going to wear the dress that I got her for the Christmas program…I have no idea what to put Harley in. *sigh*  But I can’t send out cards until I get pics taken either…I’ve been so lazy about it.

Well…I suppose…that’s about it…
*is watching the A&E Harry Potter specail thing…Again…*laughs*