A year ago…

A year ago I received a surprising friend request on Facebook, with an even more surprising message attached. In all honestly, at the time, I really didn’t know what to make of it, and seriously wasn’t sure if I was going to send a reply back. I don’t know if it was curiosity, or just wanting to acknowledge that it did actually mean something, that someone from the past would apologize, not so much for what they did, but for what they didn’t do, and maybe should have done. It takes a special kind of person to admit they were wrong, especially 20 years later.

In this last year, I’ve come to realize just how special of a being he really is. He’s there for me, even if he has to remind me that it’s what he’s there for. He accepts me for me, appreciates me for me, loves me for me. Despite the distance, we ‘talk’ one way or another (almost) every day. He makes me laugh when I want to cry, makes me smile when it’s hard to find a reason. Even if we are just sitting there…Hundreds of miles between us…Connected via internet…Being able to see each other, even if we aren’t saying much…It means the world to me. It’s the little things…It’s the big things…It’s everything.

A year ago, I would of never imagined I would feel like this. Now…I can’t imagine how things would be without this feeling. As agonizing as it is sometimes, as much as I hate the distance…It is well worth it all. I love him, with all my heart has to offer. I only hope I make him as happy as he makes me.