A few odds and ends…

I know what I have to do. I just don’t know when I’ll mange to do it. I know most people would probably think that knowing/figuring out what one has to do should be the hard part. And perhaps, for most, that is it. But it’s the actual doing that is proving to be my downfall.
For all my complaining and bitching…I still can’t help but feel bad about the whole thing.  I don’t want to hurt anyone…and I can’t see things not hurting someone. Even if the oblivious one doesn’t seem to realize I’m being hurt in all of this.

*sigh* Mum is gone…Off to ‘see a movie’ at Ryan’s. Yeah…because I’m really that bloody stupid. *rolls eyes*

Mike is growing incredibly more abnoxious. Shouldn’t be surprised. Still, the level of pathetic he has reached…it’s…well pathetic. Back in school, he was always so sure of himself. He knew what he wanted, when he wanted it, and knew he’d get it. He had an EGO the size of a barn…and now. Now…*shakes head* It’s just…sad what he’s become. And throughly unappealing as well.
Still he tries to make things about him. My rejection of him now, he wants to blame on him chosing his wife over me a year ago. I told him I don’t know how things would of been if he hadn’t. Because I don’t. I might have stayed in my blind little cacoon where he is concerned. But he didn’t, and I didn’t.  I’m not the same person I was a year ago when it ended…or two years ago when the affair started for that matter. I’ve changed since then. A change for the better, I hope. The love I thought I felt for him, it’s not there. It was past feelings, past emotions that, well…I’ve gotten past.

On more normal subjects….

They are making a DragonLance movie. Though animated and not live action…which is slightly disappointing…but it’s better than nothing.  And my choice to play the live action Kitiara (Lucy Lawless), will be doing the voice for Goldmoon instead.  Aww…damn…I just realized, unless they do flashbacks….Kit won’t even be in the bloody movie! *pouts* As she didn’t make her appearance until the second of the Chronicles, and the movie is to be based off the first one (As it, as a book, was designed to stand alone, in case it didn’t do well).

Well I’m on the phone…So I guess I’ll be getting off from here for the moment….