#7…Close enough to a title.

Head feeling a bit better today…Though it’s still threatening to be painful. [Well tech. there is still a bit of pain…But not like last night.]

I have managed to get some homework done. J

I’ve got all four of the Drawing II, same still life, different colour scheme drawings done.

I’ve started on the colour section in my 2-D design sourcebook. I have all the online definitions done…I just need to do my own & find pictures to go with, and say why I picked them. Also need to get the examples that he’s given us that he wants in there…But it’s a start.

Need to get to work on my next Creative Writing assignment…It’s focus is suppose to be Point of View.

And of course…Need to work on sketchbooks as they are both waaaaaaaaaaaaay behind. *sigh* I just don’t have that many people to draw…I hate to make Sonja sit for me all the time, and Harley doesn’t have the patients…And I can’t seem to ask anyone else. *shrugs*
And…I’m tired of the things around the house to draw…I want to draw things I don’t see everyday. I had plans on going to a cemetery and sketching some headstones…But today will probably be the last good weather day, and Sonja stayed home not feeling well this morning…So I couldn’t go today…Aside from I’m not sure I really would feel quite up to that today. & if I had done that, probably wouldn’t have gotten my other pictures done.
Still need to work on the at home assignment…I only have one out of the five studies done. [And that’s only basic sketched out…It needs something more, I’m sure.]

Cleaned the rats cage today (long over due), and gave them their (also long over due) bath. Tobi decided he didn’t want to be in there…Which is why I was in there with Sonja (as she head decided she wanted to give them their baths, but Tobi kept trying to jump out). Anyway…I had on a long-sleeved shirt on, the sleeves pushed up slightly, and Tobi jumped up into my sleeve! He decided he wanted out, and he wasn’t going to take not for an answer.

Anyway…I think this is it for the moment…*wanders off momentarily*

*wanders back*
A bit of good news…But (per usual) at a price. Mum’s truck is not dead. It wasn’t the head gasket like she was worried…It was the tappet pan gasket…And a few other things (like break work, which she knew was coming), when it’s all said and done is going to be about $2000.00.

My other problem at this point, is my own mental issues…

Despite my killer headache last night, I was still hoping for a late night phone call, which did not come. And I’ll go to bed tonight, hoping for a late night phone call…And when it doesn’t come, I’ll probably be feeling worse tomorrow.
I know it’s only been two days since I seen him…A week since he’s been here…
But I’m that insecure…That worried…That paranoid…

I talked to Derrick today…He told me to just tell Todd how it is. That no matter how brutally honest I was to be, he’d take it and be good with it.
So what do I do? Tell him I could understand, if this is how he treated his past girlfriends, why they cheated on him? I just wish I knew where I stood more often…That I knew how he felt more often.
He’s told me that if he believed in saying he had a best friend, it would be me.

He’s said he loves me…The last time without the ‘a little’.

He’s said, despite not believing in marriage that he wanted to the one night…A couple nights.

He’s said, more or less, that he would want to have a child with me.
Then again…He’s been drunk all those times…Then asks me how I can stand to be around him when he is drunk. *shakes head* *sigh*

And now…*sigh* Mum’s going to be leaving…So if Todd was to call…What do I do? Tell him no, can’t come get you tonight, sorry…I do really want to see you though, but please don’t try to get here, as I don’t want you to risk running into a tree…Or…Wake up Sonja & Harley at anywhere between 2&4 and drag them along with me. That would be so much fun. *sigh*

In all honesty…I just want to sit down and cry right now. I’m just feeling frustrated, and blah, and…I don’t know. Which really, is not helping the head at all.
I need to get online though…Attempt to be social…Maybe it will help the mood…I don’t know…*sigh*

Oh yeah…One more thing…That I’ve been saying for a while now…I need a new diary name.

Anyone have any good ideas? I need something…I need change…