#15: More whining…It’s my new hobby

Yet again…No phone call. *sigh* I really don’t know what to think. I need to talk to him, find out for sure. But that’s awfully hard to do when he doesn’t call me back. I know he’s working all the time, or at least the last time I knew he was…Who knows, that could of changed for all I know as well.

I don’t want it to be the end…But if that’s what he wants…I’d rather he just tell me instead of making me guess. I’ll be hurt, I won’t lie…But at least I’d know.

Other than that…

Managed a couple more pictures in my Drawing II sketchbook…Still none for Life Drawing though.

Still no where on my Creative Writing story…

Tomorrow is my induction into the International Honour Society. At least I get to rescue the Critters early.

I’m tired of the days getting shorter already…And I know, I still have over a month of it to go. L It’s too dark already…Usually I like the dark…But I prefer it with warmth…It’s too cold. *thinks about bonfires* *sighs*

I suppose my mind is really just one place, and one place only. Which probably seems quite pathetic…But…*sigh*…I just don’t know what’s going on…So I don’t know what to think, or how to feel…Aside from worried & hurting.

Wouldn’t it be just my luck…Find the one person who makes me feel like I never have before…Makes me feel like sex can be more than sex, that there can be a real connectedness between people there…Make the thought of being with anyone else make me want to be sick…And he decides to wander off on me.

*wanders off and plays some games for a while*
 

Well…I managed to run out the time on two more games. I now have a collection of three games that time has run out, and I wish I had the money to pay for the full versions. I had two more, but I got rid of them…They weren’t all the interesting…Oh wait…Make that four, I forgot, Peggle Nights isn’t in the ‘run out of time’ folder.

I attempted to make ‘Lure of the rat’ so I could turn it in…But there are way too many HP references throughout it, so yeah…I’m thinking impossible. I tried to write something with Orinda, and her insanity…But, apparently, my hearts not in that either. I need something…I think I’m going to curl up with a notebook and pen, and just start scribbling, and hope like hell something useable pops out. *sigh* Not holding my breath on that either…But hey, there is more of a chance of that than other things happening, right?

Mum left for a while…Leaving me with her thoughts of…Maybe you’ll get a call to go somewhere later…Told her I wasn’t holding my breath…She said she wouldn’t either. Nice…Could of said ‘you never know’ instead. It would be more helpful. *sigh*

But yeah…I’m wasting time currently, and I really need to get to work on my stuff…Bad enough I’m no doubtedly going to be placed on probation first thing for the honours society as it is…I’ll be lucky if I get even on 3.5 this semester…[I know that’s what I was getting at mid-term for 2-D design, but the matching the colours thing is a bit troublesome, and I’m not sure how well I pulled off this last project, and not sure how well I’m going to pull off the source book this time around either…So, I guess we’ll see…Though James got a 3.5, and he swears the teacher hates him…I need to take a look at his source book (as I still have it) and see if it can help me come up with the next bunch of pictures I need for it…Though I need ink too, or it won’t do me much good.]

Okay…Here I am…Off to attempt to write something…