hope?

Lately i have been feeling upset, sad, stressed, overwhelmed, etc, the emotions go on.

i still am.

my bedroom is too cramped, there is shit everywhere.

my mom is always on me about something. today it was like 6 fuckin things.

work is boring..

i felt, hint the word felt, like my relationship was not as exciting anymore.

my body is not what i would like it to be

and more and mroe.

i realize these are little things compared to what other ppl go thru. i am even going thru a bigger one that i am not going to talk about to anyone. but i jus feel the need to write all these little things down beside the point in them being insignificant.

today i got a glimpse of hope when i got an email from Anex Marketing Inc, for a job interview so I called and set up an appt for Friday at 2pm. I am nervous but exciting bc i jus have a feeling this might be the job.

its in Lakewood which is a little ways  of a drive but not as bad as seattle so im grateful.

The company does marketing for non-profit organizations like DARE. which i think is pretty cool. it sounds like a very people person oriented job which is something that I would like to get better skills at.

I really hope that I do well on the interview and that they like me. I just have to be really friendly and i think they will.

anyway, i was really excited about it and the second my mom gets home she starts ripping into me about a whole lot of crap and i tell her about that and she doesn’t even seem to care. she just ignores it and goes on about how shitty my hair looks.

i need to move out. bad.

Now some of you might be thinking, well why dont u stand up to her, blah blah blah, yea i have thought of that. but at the moment i am living in their house, and they are paying my cell and car insurance bills.  the only thing i pay is my gas, and car payment. which is a lot but until i am able to pay everything on my own i cant go telling my mom off.

anyway.

our plans for the weekend include,

Friday- jon and me and whoever else going to happy hour at Puerto Vallarta. starts at 3. we have a DD if anyone wants to hitch a ride and then chill at Dougs afterwards. his parents are gone for the weekend. yay.

we have a few funny movies to watch also.

sooooo i guess thats all. i have a thing with the garage but i am too tired to tell it. oh and also with the phones at work. i will maybe tell them if you ask or in my next entry if i remember.

xoxo