a month and a half later??

soooo update is in order.

i have just been so so busy with work everyday and now going to the gym almost everyday.

first things i had 2 pretty freaky dreams to me.

 but i will write them in a fav only entry. lol

next. well work is going ok. i get a lil bored. but i think i have a low type of ADD or something. i can’t do anything the same for more than a half hour gets extremely boring to me. like when im running at the gym. i can’t do it too long otherwise i get bored. so to cure that i bring a book and read it while im running. takes my mind off of it and into the story i am reading.

OH. speaking of reading. im sure everyone knows about the Twilight movie that came out that is based on the book. now all of a sudden there is all this hype of vampires and fantasy books.

this actually makes me mad a lil. before everyone was all infatuated by Twilight i had been reading Lyndsay Sands series about vampires and Maggie Shayne series about vampires and a newer one i have been reading is from Kresley Cole about vampires and lykans (werewolves) and Valyurie (strong beautiful fighters that lightening is their source of energy and emotions). i mean what makes Twilight so much more better than theirs? i read Twilight today and it was good. the only real difference i see between them is that the other authors go into more details with love scenes. they go all the way in the books. lol i guess they are more grown up. but i also think they have a pretty sweet storyline for the way they are vampires like in Lyndsay Sands books. i don’t want to give it away for ppl that haven’t read them but lets just say they aren’t dead. its pretty sweet.

anyway i did enjoy Twilight the movie and the book. i can’t wait to read the second one. which i had to order online bc i couldn’t find it in any stores. oh well. but it justs makes me wonder why someone chose Stephanie Meyer to do a movie about and not one of the other books. i am assuming bc they go in too detail with the love scenes? probly.

also another book series that i have been reading is Eragon. There are 3 books to it and the 3rd one came out this summer. i can’t wait to read it but its too expensive to buy i am going to wait until it comes out in paperback. BUT dougs dad has it so i might borrow it from him.

ANOTHER series that i just started reading is by Terry Goodwin The Sword of Truth series. its many books that are approx. 975 pages each. i just started the first one but so far pretty good. it just became a TV series called The Legend of the Seeker. good so far.

lets seeeeee what else.

oh about working out. i am a lil worried that since i have started working out i am going to start gaining muscle. i really don’t want to do that. i want to lose all of the fat i have. not get muscley. (lol) but i think the way to do that is light weights, many reps. but the question is what is light weights? i just don’t know. 🙁

what else. i have been hanging out alot with jon lately. its been cool. i feel like him and i are actually friends now just not "his best friends gf" lol. it makes me think alot about doug too but i don’t want to voice that stuff in my open entry. that will be for Fav only entry. lol.

Hannah has been hanging out alot with us too. i never really thought we would all hang out. i just kind of thought this summer might be a fluke. if that makes since? ever since senior yr of high school its just been kind of an off and on kind of thing hanging out. part of that being that i went off to college in search of a way out of PO. now us hanging out seems like it might stick. i am happy about this. i was scared of getting hurt again or hurting them again. but i realize that i have changed since a while ago.

i mean in my old relationship i pushed ppl away, i cheated on him 3 times in the 2 yrs 8months we were together. nothing more than making out mind you. doug and i have been together 2yrs 3months and nothing 🙂 i have even had chances and i didn’t even think about doing it. i have also not been around 1 of the same guys that tempted me before. but if i were i don’t believe i would do it. also i have been around the other guy i did. even alone with him and nothing. yes he is still attractive but the thought just didn’t even cross my mind and i didn’t feel that urge to touch him and feel his hands on me like before. i know i have grown.

speaking of growing. growing up is so hard. esp when your bf is not to that point yet. and other ppl for that matter. i mean here i am with this good job. done with college. and my bf is still acting like its the first yr of college. not that thats a bad thing. he should act young while he still has the chance. but it is hard on me when i am stuck working 8-4:30 everyday having to get up at 6:30 every morning. i mean i can’t stay out late like everyone else can and it sucks. like some ppl went to OR this friday to see our friend Joe. but they didn’t want to leave after i got off work so i was stuck being left behind. so i mean is that the price i have to pay for being done with college? it really just sucks.

and the other problem with growing up. i am still living at home. the reason for this? i get paid 9.50 an hour yet that is not enough to move out and pay all of my bills. right now i am paying my insurance, phone and car payment which comes to almost $450. which leaves me with about 200 left over. not very much. consider to get an apt its at least 700 plus internet, cable, energy, garbage, safety deposit, pet fee and whatever else they make u pay for. so considering i only make about 1300 a month i

t is not enough.

now luckily my parents have a cottage in belfair and we have come upon an agreement for me to rent it for 400. with that i will have just enough to get by. sooo in January i will be moving out to Belfair. hopefully ppl will come visit me. the cottage is cute and little with a fire place, porch, a lil yard and view of the water. theres even a community pool nearby. it is far away but oh well. i need to get out on my own. i feel so depressed here……

what else……

i got a new phone. a voyager, touch screen and open up to key board. i haven’t decided if i quite like it or not. the touch screen is sweet but it is kind of big and bulky compared to flip phones. :/ sooo i dont know.

soooooo…

oh oh hannah was on the news and newspaper bc she was in Twilight!! kind of haha. she was an extra in the background of one of the scenes. it was pretty cool to see her. in all of that! 🙂 we all hope her career will start bc i know she has been working hard for it for a while! hopefully she wont forget all of us WA ppl when she becomes a big star!! 😉 hehe

hummmm well i know i had some other stuff i wanted to write buttt i cant remember. one day i will make a drawing of the person i am inside… you might be surprised by what you see. but those of u who know me good enough might not be surprised. ; )

actually i realized that one of Hannah’s sisters drawings reminds me of it. i hope she doesn’t mind if i post it up here. but its hers don’t copy it.