where do I begin
I have been in some sort of a mental funk lately. Part of it is that I am starting to hate my job. I have a meeting today with a supervisor and boss and I’m so worried that they are going to "counsel" me because of my stupid co worker. All she does is complain about everything and everyone. I can’t stand her and I can’t stand any of it anymore. I have been through so much this last year I don’t need this stress.
Also I am going to the cancer center with a friend that is battling breast cancer. I am her patient advocate. She reads at an 8th grade level and doesn’t understand much. Long story short, her cancer has spread and she will find out what the plan is today. I’m afraid it is going to be bad news.
Okay…I am just dumping here…
I screwed up all the bills again. Late, late late. I can’t get everything all caught up. I’m not sure how I’m going to get myself out of this. John doesn’t know as always. He totally overreacts about these things and so I have just learn to hide things.
My weight is out of control. I lost quite a bit with the chemo, then went on steroids and special meds to keep my body estrogen free. I am keep snowballing everything is so out of control.
My house is a mess
I am so unhappy with everything right now. I haven’t been taking care of myself. I just sit around in my pj’s and feel sorry for myself.
Thanks for letting me dump.
Oh sweetie, we all need to dump and OD is the place to expel all that “crap” we carry around in our hearts and heads. If I’ve learned nothing else in all my years when I get into the funk of “overwhelming” I must take a step back and pick ONE thing to take care of. Once that ONE thing is done, I do ONE more thing and then continue on until that overwhelming list is much more manageable. You don’tneed this stress so please take steps to reduce it especially on the things you really can actually do something about. I promise if you can get one or two things done you’ll start feeling much better. You are loved and thought of often. God Bless and take care of you! I will keep your meeting in my prayers.
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((((BigHugz)))) I totally agree with MiddleAgePearl!! She said it so well, I totally concur. I will keep this meeting in my prayers, too and I will keep YOU in my prayers. Dump & vent, share, anything at anytime!!!! Love you S, ~~Lois
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Dump all you want sweet friend!! You have been through sooo much and have remained always on my mind and prayers!! You as above noter said, take it One Day at a Time and do one thing at a time…it is ok if things are not perfect and always kept up…You are far more important than those things…one bill at a time…God will provide a way…your heart is so good and your God is right there!! So good of you to be there for your friend at this hard time in her life!! What a blessing you will be to her…First things First, and ask How Important is It? These slogans have helped me so much…and “Just for Today”…Love you Susan!! <3
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Hugs and more hugs. You have a heap of responsibilities and worries. I wish John would man up and help out!
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Hope things get better!
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This is the place to dump. I’ve missed hearing from you.
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You are going to come through this rough patch smarter and stronger. Have faith in yourself and your abilities. These experiences, though difficult, are valuable. It will be okay. HUGS.
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*HUGS* This is the perfect place to dump. You have been through so much in the past year and you deserve a break. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Chemo has nasty lasting effects.
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I do a Drive Dump Bys and feel horrible about it. {{HUGS}} But this is the place for it. Your work issues sound exactly like mine, just pray, thats what I did and it got me through those six months. Just prioritize and do what you can do. Been there and managed. {{HUGS}}
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Susan, I just saw on FB about John. Oh my goodness, what happened? I am SOOOO sorry. I can’t even imagine us grieving together, or any of this. I am praying for you and Tara & Dale now. I love you and again, I am SO sorry for your deep loss. Big Gentle hugzzzzzzzzzz…love, Lois
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